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Old 08-12-2017, 09:48 AM
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The 13th is approaching

Ughh SORRY to moan again and I know this is STUPID but the 13th is approaching and my ocd is kicking off!

I just have to bunker down and ride this out! Ive been trying to avoid the calendar so I could let it go on by but I messed up.
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Old 08-12-2017, 02:11 PM
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Take care. Its hard when the mind plays tricks on you. I know you know this but....its only a thought, it can't hurt you.
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Old 08-12-2017, 02:12 PM
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Originally Posted by DarklingSong View Post
Take care. Its hard when the mind plays tricks on you. I know you know this but....its only a thought, it can't hurt you.
Thanks, I just gotta ride it out.
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Old 08-12-2017, 03:22 PM
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Fljppin HATE this!

This therapist better be able to deal with this or im out of damn options!
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Old 08-12-2017, 03:31 PM
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24 hours of this sh!t to contend with!
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Hey Chilled, sorry if I have missed it, but would talking out the issue on here a little bit help do you think?
I don't know all what is bothering you, but you know we are here.
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Originally Posted by Delizadee View Post
Hey Chilled, sorry if I have missed it, but would talking out the issue on here a little bit help do you think?
I don't know all what is bothering you, but you know we are here.
I just get panicky when its the 13th, an ocd thing is all.

I have to ride it out.
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Old 08-12-2017, 03:50 PM
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Don't let what may happen tomorrow
rob you of a good night sleep. Stay in
today and the moment. And remember
tomorrow hasn't arrived yet.

Stay strong friend.
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Old 08-12-2017, 03:56 PM
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It's just spiralled outta control it really has, I've even asked God to just take me home because I don't wanna be around anymore!
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Hey chilled, dunno if it helps but I'm in the 13th and its a pretty nice day

You have massive support here - you'll get through this

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Hey chilled, dunno if it helps but I'm in the 13th and its a pretty nice day

You have massive support here - you'll get through this

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Thanks Dee , your awesome
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It's all getting outta hand inside my mind and I can't help but feel that professional help has arrived too late, I just feel utterly destroyed inside my mind and can barely have the strength to survive!


I genuinely don't wish to be around anymore, just want The Lord to take me home now!
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Old 08-12-2017, 04:52 PM
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I actually had it all planned out and that gave me a beautiful peace inside BUT then I had an ocd thought about hell etc so now I feel TRAPPED inside if this nightmare!


Sorry ive just had enough!
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Having no experience with this, I'm also curious to hear about what it's like.

Perhaps it could help you (and enlighten us) to describe it?

(could also help your fellow sufferers...as I'm sure you're not alone in this)
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Originally Posted by columbus View Post
Having no experience with this, I'm also curious to hear about what it's like.

Perhaps it could help you (and enlighten us) to describe it?
13 is a bad number a frightening number and I CAN'T rationalize against it, as soon as the clock strikes midnight I get panic attacks because I feel trapped INSIDE the day! There is NOTHING I can do to stop it being the 13th so I have a full 24 hours of panic attacks ahead of me.
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As I added to say in my above post:

"could also help your fellow sufferers...as I'm sure you're not alone in this"

Speak on this matter.
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Hey Chilled is there a number you can call, people to talk to? Even of its the Samaritans or something?

If you're around 30ish you've already gotten through over a 300 13ths...it might not help with the OCD to know that - but man...you CAN get through this - you've done it before

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Hey Chilled is there a number you can call, people to talk to? Even of its the Samaritans or something?

If you're around 30ish you've already gotten through over a 300 13ths...it might not help with the OCD to know that - but man...you CAN get through this - you've done it before

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I don't wanna call them up Dee im tired of talking to psychotherapists and councilors over the phone, it goes way beyond just the number 13 its spread all over the place, I get scared of EVERYTHING!

And I will NOT live in a mental home at 31 years old no way, I will simply refuse this condition.

I am in a constant state of fear all the time, I feel like im floating outside of my body all the time and the world around me is a dream world and im screaming inside.
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It's like my life is one big panic attack!
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Sorry im just gushing all my emotions out.
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