Two Weeks Sober Today <3
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Two Weeks Sober Today <3
Thank you SOBER FAMILY for your ever present support.
I could NOT do this without you.
Its been, all in all, a great two weeks. That does not mean every day has been a great day. It hasnt. There have been days of frustration for sure. But... what is great is that Ive been learning a lot... about the recovery process, and about myself.
And I see the sober muscles building, becoming fortified, with every new thing I learn.
Its great to be in a place of both hard work AND discovery. I have found, so far, that though I may not feel utter joy every day, and that maybe joy is in shorter supply because of this healing, restructuring brain I am dealing with... I have found that curiosity about this process has been the KEY to remaining sober. That curiosity puts me in a place of detachment ... logic... interest... etc. That curiosity can take the place of joy, or rather... That curiosity is a wonderful sneaky trick that is being offered from my spiritual voice, my spiritual self... as a way to the back door of joy. All the other doors and windows I used to use while drinking are locked. But the curiosity path to JOY, has remained a secret way in there.
And its a better, more proactive joy.
As I get sober, I start to get to know a new me. And that also revs up my curiosity. Who is this new adult woman... Who was so scared since her teens of the word alcoholism? Who is she NOW, that she has finally faced this scary monster? Now that she is actively facing it, and has finally accepted that iT EXISTS?
This is a woman whose life long fear has come to fruition, and she is now in the process of ACTUALLY facing the demon.
What will life look like from here?
I could NOT do this without you.
Its been, all in all, a great two weeks. That does not mean every day has been a great day. It hasnt. There have been days of frustration for sure. But... what is great is that Ive been learning a lot... about the recovery process, and about myself.
And I see the sober muscles building, becoming fortified, with every new thing I learn.
Its great to be in a place of both hard work AND discovery. I have found, so far, that though I may not feel utter joy every day, and that maybe joy is in shorter supply because of this healing, restructuring brain I am dealing with... I have found that curiosity about this process has been the KEY to remaining sober. That curiosity puts me in a place of detachment ... logic... interest... etc. That curiosity can take the place of joy, or rather... That curiosity is a wonderful sneaky trick that is being offered from my spiritual voice, my spiritual self... as a way to the back door of joy. All the other doors and windows I used to use while drinking are locked. But the curiosity path to JOY, has remained a secret way in there.
And its a better, more proactive joy.
As I get sober, I start to get to know a new me. And that also revs up my curiosity. Who is this new adult woman... Who was so scared since her teens of the word alcoholism? Who is she NOW, that she has finally faced this scary monster? Now that she is actively facing it, and has finally accepted that iT EXISTS?
This is a woman whose life long fear has come to fruition, and she is now in the process of ACTUALLY facing the demon.
What will life look like from here?
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