rainyengland

Hiya All

Day 119 here,last week has been toughest so far and a real battle for various reasons

My question is how do you deal with feelings in sobriety ? I just blacked them out for years which frankly does feel easier to do sometimes !

I really want to get back on track but I just feel empty inside,stomach feels like it's fluttering all the time and I'm marking really bad decisions personally and professionally

Does depression make you make really bad decisions and cloud your judgment ? Maybe I need to see a doc ? I don't think I have depression but don't know how to compare if I do !

Thank you :-)

PippoRossi

You know, seeing a doc may not be a bad idea. As alcoholics, it's really hard to find out who we "really" are when we've been hiding it for so many years behind an alcohol exterior.

2ndhandrose

For myself, seeking treatment from my doctor was the best thing I ever did (aside from quitting drinking )

I didn't know what feeling normal was until I started to feel normal.

rainyengland

Thank you :-)

I think i will make a appointment,I dont want to feel like way I am or the person I'm becoming ..I desperately need to change things

I'm in a ridiculous position - I have everything you could want but hell bent on destroying it because the grass is greener - I KNOW it's not but just a mess lately

This happened before on my last sobriety of 3 months few years back and I hit the bottle again massive style , I can just see it being repeated now and I worked so hard to stop drinking but other problems which were part of my drinking problem are still there and dragging me back down

Dee74

I'm glad you're making an appointment RE - let us know how you get on

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rainyengland

Thanks :-) first thing Monday !

january161992

by being of maximum service to others so that we can be less selfish and less self- centered which is the problem

so that we can become less selfish and more selfless

Delilah1

I'm glad you are making an appointment too, that is a great place to start. I have found exercise and mindfulness helpful in managing my stress.