babyedwards

Last couple days have been hard in the panic attack area. I gave up alcohol after drinking daily, from sun up to sun down, about a month or so ago.

Recently my ocd has been on high alert. I've become hyper focused on my heart. Thinking my heart rate is too low (54-58bpm) and thinking I have heart disease. Which in turn leads to massive panic attacks and breakdowns. Normally, I would grab a shot of vodka and my problems would be solved. But now....i have no idea what to do. So I sit in the panic and waste half a day and end up with a headache. It would be so so easy to just have a shot and feel safe. Ugh.

Dee74

Hi babyedwards

If you're really worried why not check with your DR and make sure everything is ok?

That will give you greater relief than any amount of booze could

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babyedwards

When I was in for detox the doctor had a listen because I told him of my concerns. He said there is absolutely nothing wrong with my heart and he wouldn't waste my time, his time or the techs time running tests because he's confident nothing is wrong.

It's just my ocd going nuts. I convince myself I'm dying. With no vodka to quiet the voices it's hard. I need better coping skills.

Dee74

Ok fair enough.
I wish my heart would beat at 54-58 bpm BE

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babyedwards

Lol. Mine does go up during panic attacks and exercise. But resting is low. I'm just being silly today. It will pass. I've got my peppermint tea and watching the office. Urge to run to vodka has passed.

rascalwhiteoak

It's easy to catastrophize thoughts about health -- I did it before and even after I quit drinking. I also got a clean bill of health from the doctor. Around here, we talk about the AVRT, but really any sort of destructive/compulsive thought can be acknowledged and then rejected.

axeman5971

Don't think of drinking that vodka as a solution to your problem. It's delaying the onset of the problem and earning interest until you pay for it!