Im close to breaking
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[I]No. but I walked away from God and shouted at Him got angry towards my brothers and sisters in Christ and listened to seriously bad music etc [/I]
Oh have I been there. Shouted at God. Swore at him. Screamed at him. Ripped up bibles. Rued the very day I was born. Over and over again I railed against Him and let Him have it every chance I got. But you know what? He's God. I think He can handle it. Anger is a part of being human. So is not being able to see a bigger picture. Personally, I'm not afraid of being honest with God. If I can't be honest with Him who can I be? I imagine He saw me as a spiritually immature child throwing a tantrum, just like I used to watch my own children do. If a small child tells their parent they hate them, does the parent take them seriously and sever the relationship and kick them out of the house? No? Then I think you have your answer. Grace is bigger and stronger than anything we throw at it.
Maybe these are memories I drowned out by drinking and didn't realise it?
[I]No. but I walked away from God and shouted at Him got angry towards my brothers and sisters in Christ and listened to seriously bad music etc [/I]
Oh have I been there. Shouted at God. Swore at him. Screamed at him. Ripped up bibles. Rued the very day I was born. Over and over again I railed against Him and let Him have it every chance I got. But you know what? He's God. I think He can handle it. Anger is a part of being human. So is not being able to see a bigger picture. Personally, I'm not afraid of being honest with God. If I can't be honest with Him who can I be? I imagine He saw me as a spiritually immature child throwing a tantrum, just like I used to watch my own children do. If a small child tells their parent they hate them, does the parent take them seriously and sever the relationship and kick them out of the house? No? Then I think you have your answer. Grace is bigger and stronger than anything we throw at it.
“Away with you,Satan! For it is written, ‘You shall worship the Lord your God, and Him only you shall serve.’”
"Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns."
"Maybe these are memories I drowned out by drinking and didn't realise it?"
more than likely.
now to let them go.
and what did jesus say to the enemy?
“Away with you,Satan! For it is written, ‘You shall worship the Lord your God, and Him only you shall serve.’”
"Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns."
"Maybe these are memories I drowned out by drinking and didn't realise it?"
more than likely.
now to let them go.
“Away with you,Satan! For it is written, ‘You shall worship the Lord your God, and Him only you shall serve.’”
"Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns."
"Maybe these are memories I drowned out by drinking and didn't realise it?"
more than likely.
now to let them go.
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As far as past sins that you had buried and are now bubbling up to haunt you, Christ's blood covers them. Just apologize earnestly to him, and repent (sounds like you've already turned away from them).
Recognize that the blasphemous and "unforgivable sin" thoughts are just an irrational function of your severe OCD. They do not represent your true will.
Have you been to see a psychiatrist? Their main function nowadays is to assess and diagnose problems, then prescribe medication that can really help.
I thank God that he has worked through doctors (and the first two were secular) to help me with medicine. Medicine has been a lifesaver for me when all the reasoning in the world had no effect.
I hope you will see a doctor who specializes in OCD--a psychiatrist. For genuine illness, it makes no difference if they're Christians or not. OCD is an real and serious illness. A psychiatrist might really be able to reduce your torment.
Proper medical treatment might really set you free.
Recognize that the blasphemous and "unforgivable sin" thoughts are just an irrational function of your severe OCD. They do not represent your true will.
Have you been to see a psychiatrist? Their main function nowadays is to assess and diagnose problems, then prescribe medication that can really help.
I thank God that he has worked through doctors (and the first two were secular) to help me with medicine. Medicine has been a lifesaver for me when all the reasoning in the world had no effect.
I hope you will see a doctor who specializes in OCD--a psychiatrist. For genuine illness, it makes no difference if they're Christians or not. OCD is an real and serious illness. A psychiatrist might really be able to reduce your torment.
Proper medical treatment might really set you free.
As far as past sins that you had buried and are now bubbling up to haunt you, Christ's blood covers them. Just apologize earnestly to him, and repent (sounds like you've already turned away from them).
Recognize that the blasphemous and "unforgivable sin" thoughts are just an irrational function of your severe OCD. They do not represent your true will.
Have you been to see a psychiatrist? Their main function nowadays is to assess and diagnose problems, then prescribe medication that can really help.
I thank God that he has worked through doctors (and the first two were secular) to help me with medicine. Medicine has been a lifesaver for me when all the reasoning in the world had no effect.
I hope you will see a doctor who specializes in OCD--a psychiatrist. For genuine illness, it makes no difference if they're Christians or not. OCD is an real and serious illness. A psychiatrist might really be able to reduce your torment.
Proper medical treatment might really set you free.
Recognize that the blasphemous and "unforgivable sin" thoughts are just an irrational function of your severe OCD. They do not represent your true will.
Have you been to see a psychiatrist? Their main function nowadays is to assess and diagnose problems, then prescribe medication that can really help.
I thank God that he has worked through doctors (and the first two were secular) to help me with medicine. Medicine has been a lifesaver for me when all the reasoning in the world had no effect.
I hope you will see a doctor who specializes in OCD--a psychiatrist. For genuine illness, it makes no difference if they're Christians or not. OCD is an real and serious illness. A psychiatrist might really be able to reduce your torment.
Proper medical treatment might really set you free.
Thanks Gilmer much appreciated as always.
Chill,
It gets better and better. Some days seem worse, but really they are better.
I was agoraphobia stricken as well. It was horrible.
I faked it and folks thought i was fine.
I filled up on food and slept more. Sleep seems to be the real equalizer for me.
I was so stressed yesterday. I took a 20 minute power nap and i was back in content mode.
Since you are physically in decent health, at 52 days clean, you should try doing tons to sit ups, push up, and squats. Just in your house.
When your muscles are burning, the obsessive thoughts fade. Plus, we get endorphins.
Thanks.
It gets better and better. Some days seem worse, but really they are better.
I was agoraphobia stricken as well. It was horrible.
I faked it and folks thought i was fine.
I filled up on food and slept more. Sleep seems to be the real equalizer for me.
I was so stressed yesterday. I took a 20 minute power nap and i was back in content mode.
Since you are physically in decent health, at 52 days clean, you should try doing tons to sit ups, push up, and squats. Just in your house.
When your muscles are burning, the obsessive thoughts fade. Plus, we get endorphins.
Thanks.
Chill,
It gets better and better. Some days seem worse, but really they are better.
I was agoraphobia stricken as well. It was horrible.
I faked it and folks thought i was fine.
I filled up on food and slept more. Sleep seems to be the real equalizer for me.
I was so stressed yesterday. I took a 20 minute power nap and i was back in content mode.
Since you are physically in decent health, at 52 days clean, you should try doing tons to sit ups, push up, and squats. Just in your house.
When your muscles are burning, the obsessive thoughts fade. Plus, we get endorphins.
Thanks.
It gets better and better. Some days seem worse, but really they are better.
I was agoraphobia stricken as well. It was horrible.
I faked it and folks thought i was fine.
I filled up on food and slept more. Sleep seems to be the real equalizer for me.
I was so stressed yesterday. I took a 20 minute power nap and i was back in content mode.
Since you are physically in decent health, at 52 days clean, you should try doing tons to sit ups, push up, and squats. Just in your house.
When your muscles are burning, the obsessive thoughts fade. Plus, we get endorphins.
Thanks.
So glad you moved out of agoraphobia, im STILL holding on to SOME resemblance of hope and the worth of living.
Maybe I'll just be in the garden tonight and get some fresh air in me.
I love you guys I really do!
You always welcomed me back time after time for years on end, you never judge me you only offer me warmth and comfort and good sound advice (even when I don't like it lol )
Thanks all
You always welcomed me back time after time for years on end, you never judge me you only offer me warmth and comfort and good sound advice (even when I don't like it lol )
Thanks all
Hey Chilled,
If you are worrying about the unpardonable sin, then you haven't committed it. The only unpardonable sin, from a protestant perspective, is ultimately rejecting the grace of God in and through his Son. To have committed that sin you would have come to a place where you were no longer able to "turn around," and accept forgiveness.
God forgives sinners, and his Holy Spirit reveals to us our need of that forgiveness, and leads us to grace which is why the unpardonable sin is also called "blasphemy against the Holy Spirit." One commits the unpardonable sin by persistently refusing to repent (turn around), and be forgiven. Having repeatedly struggled and failed does not invalidate the grace of God leading to renewed repentance and faith. God will always hold out the gift of forgiveness to us through Christ and unreservedly welcome us back.
If you are worrying about the unpardonable sin, then you haven't committed it. The only unpardonable sin, from a protestant perspective, is ultimately rejecting the grace of God in and through his Son. To have committed that sin you would have come to a place where you were no longer able to "turn around," and accept forgiveness.
God forgives sinners, and his Holy Spirit reveals to us our need of that forgiveness, and leads us to grace which is why the unpardonable sin is also called "blasphemy against the Holy Spirit." One commits the unpardonable sin by persistently refusing to repent (turn around), and be forgiven. Having repeatedly struggled and failed does not invalidate the grace of God leading to renewed repentance and faith. God will always hold out the gift of forgiveness to us through Christ and unreservedly welcome us back.
Hey Chilled,
If you are worrying about the unpardonable sin, then you haven't committed it. The only unpardonable sin, from a protestant perspective, is ultimately rejecting the grace of God in and through his Son. To have committed that sin you would have come to a place where you were no longer able to "turn around," and accept forgiveness.
God forgives sinners, and his Holy Spirit reveals to us our need of that forgiveness, and leads us to grace which is why the unpardonable sin is also called "blasphemy against the Holy Spirit." One commits the unpardonable sin by persistently refusing to repent (turn around), and be forgiven. Having repeatedly struggled and failed does not invalidate the grace of God leading to renewed repentance and faith. God will always hold out the gift of forgiveness to us through Christ and unreservedly welcome us back.
If you are worrying about the unpardonable sin, then you haven't committed it. The only unpardonable sin, from a protestant perspective, is ultimately rejecting the grace of God in and through his Son. To have committed that sin you would have come to a place where you were no longer able to "turn around," and accept forgiveness.
God forgives sinners, and his Holy Spirit reveals to us our need of that forgiveness, and leads us to grace which is why the unpardonable sin is also called "blasphemy against the Holy Spirit." One commits the unpardonable sin by persistently refusing to repent (turn around), and be forgiven. Having repeatedly struggled and failed does not invalidate the grace of God leading to renewed repentance and faith. God will always hold out the gift of forgiveness to us through Christ and unreservedly welcome us back.
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