Well hello everyone.
I figured I would come here to seek out some advice on some things as I am having a very rough time and this would be my third time attempting to stop abusing things.
I have quite a history of drugs relating back to when I was a teen and going into being an early adult, including just about every common drug out there to some extent (Though mostly opiates and sometimes psychedelics,).
I did okay for a year and stopped for the most part by the time I was 20 after nearly killing myself with an accidental overdose on herion, and was fine for about a year.
Turning 21 however threw a wrench into that sobriety when I could easily buy my own alcohol and was in school/working. Plus I lived in Seattle and there are pot shops every where.
I immediately fell into my old habits and began drinking in excess every day, also usually starting and ending it with some weed, only sobering up enough to get to work/class.
3 years later upon turning 24 I am still stuck and have attempted 3 times to quit never making it more than a few days.
I am on day two and withdrawals are heavy. Sweats, I have absolutely no desire to eat and have to force it down due to no longer smoking weed (after a while your body gets used to it regulating your hunger, and if you don't smoke you don't want to eat at all).
My head is pounding, my heart rate is at about 100 just sitting idle in a chair. More when I walk around.
Sleeping last night was very difficult.
I want to drink so badly. Want to roll a joint, to smoke a bowl. Wouldn't mind some opiates either though mostly just to deal with how my head feels. Most of my body kind of aches because I have been shivering non-stop since I woke up, despite it being 100 outside earlier.
I am seeing a doctor tomorrow morning to discuss options that might help with the symptoms.
What I want to know -
How long until the withdrawals stop? How long until I feel completely normal again after being drunk for basically three years straight and smoking massive quantities of weed every day?
What are some things I can do to distract myself? I don't have much of a social life because I spent most of my time outside of work/school isolation and have only a couple friends to talk to and my parents. I am considering going and living there for a couple weeks to get myself straightened out with more support.
But for the most part I find myself being also very bored, because without much to do I used to drink and smoke mostly for entertainment purposes and to make this computer screen more fun.
And having nothing to do, just makes me want to drink more and you can only go for a walk for so long when you live in the desert during summer.
Perhaps get a gym membership?
Take up more hours at work?
Anything, I need distractions otherwise I know I will fail because in the past I've made it about 5 days and caved due to the withdrawals and the boredom.
I am however confident I can do it this time, because my situation demands it far more than the past and my health is terrible, both school and work is on the line here as well as my home.
I don't really have a choice, and I want to be happy.
So what can I do to help myself other than that doctors visit and perhaps an AA meeting? Little things to fill time, mostly.