Difference from before to now
 

I was thinking about this last night (I am a great thinker) how come it didn't work before, well I know why, because I didn't really want it before, all these great organizations, AA, Smart recovery etc etc are great tools for my journey BUT I have to have a hunger inside of me to want to succeed, I cant just do the steps or whatever and be cured, there has to be a certain amount of willpower inside of me, and last time there wasn't, my excuse list was so long
1 The suns out
2 Its raining
3 I am stressed
4 No one understands it keeps me sane WRONG
5 everything else that I could think of
Its quite strange when I really look at me then and me now, omg I had a chip on my shoulder before with everything and everyone, any way just wanted to write this down so I can refer to it at a later date, have a great day everyone

I hope you can make this time be your time to quit for good :)

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:thanks me too