whitejay

I am so mad at myself. I lasted 7 days sober then I became so bored and wanted someone to talk to so off I went to the local bar. Here I sit the next day crying, upset, feel horrible. Depressed. why why. please stop this madness.

Susiegirl

Don't be so hard on yourself. Just pick yourself up and try again. You went 7 days without alcohol - that's awesome. Life's too short to be sat there crying. Wipe those tears away and just start again X

Mummyto2

Dont beat yourself up, get back here for help and support good luck

whitejay

ok I'll try....thank you for all your support. Its like starting all over again and again. so so sick of it.

Susiegirl

Give yourself some credit Whitejay - at least you are trying to do something about this horrible disease - Keep trying - you will succeed X

punkinn

It's a new day and continue to move forward.

FallingLeaves

Hi whitejay! I drank this weekend too, but I choose not to be angry at myself. Anger gets me nowhere, it only makes me more miserable. I don't need that right now. I need to feel good about myself and my decision to start a new and better life, and I choose to smile today.

Make sure that you don't get bored again. Read a book, watch a movie, take a walk, come here and chat. You have learned something from this experience, you have a new tool for you tool box. You can do this!

PhoenixJ

Turn that anger into getting sober- get angry with drinking.
Well done on posting. Support to you.

whitejay

I am so lucky to have you guys. I dont know what it is anymore. I am out of control. How in the heck does someone drink 20 hours straight !! what is wrong with me. I just want to scream at myself to "grow up".

thank you for being here for me HUGS

Forward12

Give AA a try next time, there are plenty of people there ready to talk. This forum is always here as well.

Dean1978

Please dont force options on people, let people make their own decisions. I am atheist and will never do 12 steps

tealily

Whitejay,

Next time you think it's a good idea to drink, remember this feeling.

You are choosing to have a better life. Alcohol is not doing anything but hurting you, making you cry and feel upset, depressed and horrible, in your own words.

Next time going to the bar to drink seems like a good idea, challenge that thought instantly. No it wouldn't be a good idea. It would be terrible. I will do something else.

There's a sticky here with ideas, and there are many more. Make your own list and distract yourself. Changing habits isn't easy, but people do it every day.

You are worth it. You deserve better.

Here is the thread I mentioned:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ething-do.html

For now, put the night at the bar behind you, and move forward. You had 7 days before, you can keep going next time.

Forward12

Good for you. From looking at your join date to recovery one, it sounds like whatever you've been trying isn't working,..

MidnightRider

Hey WhiteJay -

Just get back on with sobriety. Learn from your "slip".
But don't beat yourself up anymore.

Get on with your Day 1 !

Bob4x4

7 Days is good. That's 88% sober for 8 days. ( but 100% for one week )

do it again.

brush off the dust . . . if you feel lonely try the chat room here?

going to a bar and only ordering a soda, or gingerale or cranberry w soda works if you have the will power to fend off cravings and bar patrons that may want to bug you about non-booze drinks. . . maybe something for a few months or a year down the sober road...

go for 8 days, or more . . just try it again, don't repeat mistakes.

ReadyAtLast

Welcome back.
Maybe prepare a plan -what will you do next time you feel bored? Maybe AA or come on SR and speak to people on here. Being prepared is so important when the cravings start or we feel sad, lonely, depressed, bored etc.

shauninspain

I know what you mean I had about 12 years of starting over and was utterly sick of my own promises to myself (and others). It has to be done though as the alternative is far worse. All the best.

tomsteve

this is from your very 1st post here, jay:
"Hi. As I write for my first time I am very sick from drinking. I will do anything to stop."

what have you done to stop drinking? have you looked into the recovery programs- AA,smart, AVRT, celebrate recovery???

tomsteve

no one forced anything on anyone,dean.
im sorry you have so much anger at AA. theres many athiests in AA that have been sober a very long time.
i hope you find something that works for you.

Dee74

No ones forcing anything on anyone.

You're very welcome to share what worked for you Dean, as much as Forwards, I , or anyone else is

lets *all* get back to the OP (original poster) please.

Dee
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