Notices

I screwed up. I feel horrible. You know the drill.

Old 07-23-2017, 04:20 PM
  # 21 (permalink)  
The road goes on forever
 
MidnightRider's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2016
Location: Southern USA
Posts: 1,107
Originally Posted by herculana View Post
Does it help you to call your problem a DISEASE? Maybe if I get that idea through my head it might help me more?

Any words of love and encouragement (or whatever you think will work) will be DEEPLY appreciated.
Hey there --

Don't beat yourself up. Don't fill your head with self hate or negativity. Try and learn from your "slip" and find ways to cope when you are thinking about drinking.

As for the "Disease" .... For me... I have come to terms with my past as an "Addiction" ... I am/was addicted. My brain couldn't regulate my intake. Just kept telling me more.. more..

So I have come to realization. I cannot and will not drink. Not one drop. Nat ganna dew it.

I'm OK with this... I will be OK and live a higher quality life.


Hope this makes sense.... !
MidnightRider is offline  
Old 07-23-2017, 04:28 PM
  # 22 (permalink)  
Administrator
 
Dee74's Avatar
 
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,037
Hi and welcome back Herculana

to be honest the one thing that really helped me was this community - when I thought my head would explode or I'd never make another day sober because of factors x y and z, this community talked me down, and I got through, sober.

After a while I found what I thought was unendurable was actually endurable, with support...

and that gave me the leeway to try and find other healthier ways of dealing with stress, anger, boredom. fear, or whatever.

there are some pretty good ideas for dealing with stress here, for example:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...44-stress.html

Don't lose heart. You listened to the wrong voice as many of us did - listen to the right ones now

D
Dee74 is offline  
Old 07-23-2017, 04:51 PM
  # 23 (permalink)  
Gratitude Gardener
Thread Starter
 
Join Date: May 2017
Posts: 278
Hi Dee <3

Thank you.

So many tears today. I broke my own heart into bits and pieces these past few days of drinking. Crushed my own heart, hopes and dreams... my confidence.

Thank you for welcoming me back with sweet understanding and support.
herculana is offline  
Old 07-23-2017, 07:47 PM
  # 24 (permalink)  
Member
 
tealily's Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2015
Posts: 666
Oh Herc,

I've been thinking of you almost daily, wondering how you were doing. You were one of the first people who reached out to me here, and I've been so grateful for that! I think of you as a friend and partner and compatriot in this journey!

Please.. don't be so hard on yourself. That won't help anything. You've already done a great job identifying and figuring out what took you off track. Life will continue to throw you curveballs, anxiety and stress. You can learn from this, and be stronger.

I had a hellish week, this week.. Some major stress.. emotional breakdowns.. sobbing.. regrets.. anxiety.. very little sleep. The thought of drinking occurred to me too. It could just as easily have been me, and what would you tell me?

You'd be compassionate and caring and you'd understand, and just try to help me pick up and get back on track. That's what we are here for, for you.

Please stick around here and lean on us.

Hugs to you!
<3

tl
tealily is offline  
Old 07-23-2017, 08:55 PM
  # 25 (permalink)  
Member
 
Delilah1's Avatar
 
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: California
Posts: 13,021
Hi Herculana,

I'm so glad you are back. You can do this!!
Delilah1 is offline  
Old 07-23-2017, 08:55 PM
  # 26 (permalink)  
Gratitude Gardener
Thread Starter
 
Join Date: May 2017
Posts: 278
TeaLilly... I am so happy to hear from you, and ONCE AGAIN your words have made me cry like a baby!!! <3

THANK YOU DEAR HEART FOR BEING ON MY TEAM.

I am going to stick with you, and stay here this time. I let my connections here slip. I should not have done that. I payed dearly.

Big hugs, and gratitude for the warm welcome homes <3
herculana is offline  

Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
 
Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off




All times are GMT -7. The time now is 03:11 AM.