1 week sober for about the 10th time
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1 week sober for about the 10th time
And it was by far the easiest week I've had in the last year (when I started struggling with this disease). I've been productive, anxiety is low and dare I say I'm pretty damn satisfied with my life. I'm in outpatient treatment so that helps, but I've cheated in treatment in the past.
I'm feeling like this is the last time I'll only be 7 days sober. I've finally bought into the fact that I can't handle alcohol. It's as if I have a future for the first time in forever.
The level of confidence I have is leaving me nervous. There's no reason I should feel like this is it when I've failed so many times.
Has anyone experienced this sort of overconfidence? I know I need to continue to work and invest in my sobriety. I just can't screw this up again - I'm out of chances
I'm feeling like this is the last time I'll only be 7 days sober. I've finally bought into the fact that I can't handle alcohol. It's as if I have a future for the first time in forever.
The level of confidence I have is leaving me nervous. There's no reason I should feel like this is it when I've failed so many times.
Has anyone experienced this sort of overconfidence? I know I need to continue to work and invest in my sobriety. I just can't screw this up again - I'm out of chances
On the other hand: every single relapse has reinforced the final truth of where I would end up, the hopelessness I would feel again, the pain and the misery I'd be inflicting on myself. Because every relapse sent me further along the dark path toward insanity and death.
For me, the evidence is finally in: I can't drink anymore! Period, end of discussion, case closed. While I've said these things before, this time the stakes are higher and the alternative is much more dire, so...I can't drink anymore! It's really that simple.
Take your week, and your positive thoughts, and your strength, and run with them; we never have to go back...
I'm really confident too this time. During my last attempts I was trying to get sober for a couple months in order to start drinking again with "moderation" ( my plan was to get trashed "only" once every other week and stay sober between two binges). It never worked for me and I went through some serious storms during my countless relapses. Now it's different, my goal is to quit alcohol for the rest of my life, thus my level of confidence.I think we've reached the same point in our "alcoholic carrers".
Good luck on your (last and lifelong) sober journey
Good luck on your (last and lifelong) sober journey
I understand your skepticism even toward yourself! But I do believe eventually there can be a turning point, and it sounds like this is yours.
I feel the same this time: it's a less desperate feeling, more of a clear, peaceful resolve .. no more bargaining, or "trying" (to moderate, cut back), just an acceptance that it's time and that I've turned a corner.
Congratulations on a week and keep it up!
I feel the same this time: it's a less desperate feeling, more of a clear, peaceful resolve .. no more bargaining, or "trying" (to moderate, cut back), just an acceptance that it's time and that I've turned a corner.
Congratulations on a week and keep it up!
So, yes, you don't have to fear confidence, and you don't have to fear failure. What you have to fear is giving up. We can't let our addiction win.
I understand your skepticism even toward yourself! But I do believe eventually there can be a turning point, and it sounds like this is yours.
I feel the same this time: it's a less desperate feeling, more of a clear, peaceful resolve .. no more bargaining, or "trying" (to moderate, cut back), just an acceptance that it's time and that I've turned a corner.
Congratulations on a week and keep it up!
I feel the same this time: it's a less desperate feeling, more of a clear, peaceful resolve .. no more bargaining, or "trying" (to moderate, cut back), just an acceptance that it's time and that I've turned a corner.
Congratulations on a week and keep it up!
Hi Iowa - when I got sober the last time I knew I wouldn't have another 'drunk' in me - not if I wanted to live.
We all have our time...maybe this is your time?
If you're worried about complacency, keep working as hard as you can on recovery - the best outcome is you never need to call on your tools or your support, but it won't hurt to have them there
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We all have our time...maybe this is your time?
If you're worried about complacency, keep working as hard as you can on recovery - the best outcome is you never need to call on your tools or your support, but it won't hurt to have them there
D
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