i wish
Earth Child
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
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i wish
Sorry i keep disappearing from here all the time ... am still sober and am not high , kinda wish i could have some weed thought am better off being high ...a few months ago people where smoking weed in our stairwell ( out side one ) the smell was strong my husband was so angry about it me am thinking i want some ... i think the people above us also smoke it but we have no proof of that ...when we are in town or coming back from groups and we see stoned and drunk people part of me really want to be like that but if i did get drunk or high it could end my marriage as i think my husband wouldnt be able to cope with me like that he is already my carer due to my mental health witch of late seems to be getting worse according to my husband my husband is stressed as it is i cant do that to him i see people on drugs or drink everywhere and its triggering me a lot unsure what i can do about that and my husband is unaware that i feel like this 
Earth Child
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
Posts: 2,004
yes i get support from my pastor and friends there but for the last 2 weeks my pastor has been ill but he back at work now which is good i have an appointment with him on Friday the groups i go to help as well like the mental health groups am busy most days the only days am not so busy is a Friday or Saturday , Sunday i go to church in the morning free for the rest of the day
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Location: Australia
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Its good to see you again DA.
I live in a place where a lot of the people are wheelchair bound etc - a lot of them drink & smoke to try and forget their reality and I understand why that is, even if I disagree with the practice.
It's not my life.
For me tho, drugs and alcohol took me to some horrific places - I reckon as long as I remember that, it doesn't matter what people do around me.
Stay strong - you're doing the right thing for yourself
D
I live in a place where a lot of the people are wheelchair bound etc - a lot of them drink & smoke to try and forget their reality and I understand why that is, even if I disagree with the practice.
It's not my life.
For me tho, drugs and alcohol took me to some horrific places - I reckon as long as I remember that, it doesn't matter what people do around me.
Stay strong - you're doing the right thing for yourself
D
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Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Adelaide, Australia
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post here- lots, obsessively. Reusing, smoking, drinking.. whatever is not going to help. You know that. I first drank to escape the crap inside my head, then as a release, finally it became simply to blot out the world..but it never helped.
Keep posting. Tell your witch to f.off. I am trying very hard to do new things..as I have a mental health witch too. Write down any stupid thought- then think about it, then make myself do new stuff. The most obvious one that worked for me- is art. I express my moods in colours, symbols ...I learn from the process. Another one- although have not found anything I like 9but still do a bit anyway to socialise) is volunteering.
Keep posting. Tell your witch to f.off. I am trying very hard to do new things..as I have a mental health witch too. Write down any stupid thought- then think about it, then make myself do new stuff. The most obvious one that worked for me- is art. I express my moods in colours, symbols ...I learn from the process. Another one- although have not found anything I like 9but still do a bit anyway to socialise) is volunteering.
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