| hns0685 | 07-05-2017 09:35 AM |
I'm here and sober!
Hello everyone! I just wanted to say a huge thank you to those that responded to my "Trying to get sober again" post. Here I am on day 2 of being completely sober. The last 2 days of my drinking really should have been sobriety days, but at the last minute before bedtime I decided to drink ONE drink (how stupid). Anyway, I finally feel like I am done. I have to be and WANT to be. I've been journaling like crazy for this past week and have gotten a glimpse into a lot of my fears and resentments that continue to lead me back to drinking after periods of sobriety. Today I'm looking forward to checking out the recovery programs on here that someone sent me last week (thank you) and create a plan to not fall backwards. I am having some health issues right now that are concerning me, making me wonder if I have damaged my liver, but I'm terrified of going to my doctor who knows that I've been sober but doesn't know that I've relapsed. I guess it's pride, guilt and shame. Maybe I should just go in and do a blood draw to see where my levels are, but at the same time I know that if I continue on this path that my liver can regenerate and heal as long as I don't drink anymore. Whew, that was a lot of word vomit. I just wanted to tell you guys thank you, and let you know that it's day 2. :) | 