SparkleKitty

None of us can answer what she will or will not do. I'm sorry.

Maybe the best you can do right now is just focus on taking care of yourself, regardless of what she does or doesn't do, now or later. You can't control what she will or won't do, but you can focus on yourself, your health, your sobriety, and managing your expectations. Spend time with friends or family who care about you. Do you have any hobbies you particularly enjoy that you can engage in?

Berrybean

A resentment as in being peed off that she dumped you after you invested your time and emotions in the relationship, and thinking about it over and over in your head like a washing machine on spin.

And manipulate the situation as in trying to get things to go so you get what YOU want (her to come back to you) regardless of the fact that she has told you that she wants you to leave her alone to focus on her recovery.

What does your sponsor say about it?

BB