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Old 06-22-2017, 01:33 PM
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Hey sixstring,
I'm so happy to hear you are sticking it out
I hope you always remember that you have friends and family here at SR. 24/7 here to support you as best we all can, with caring and understanding.

You're doing great. Agreed. Every day, you are worth it. Life will get better.
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Old 06-22-2017, 03:10 PM
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The point is this...

You are alive and that is one amaizing gift. This isn't a rehearsal. Anyone has the chance at whatever stage in life they are at, to turn it around and start living the good life. Try doing sobriety, try it. You have nothing to lose (everything to gain). You'll buy back years for yourself, have the chance to meet someone lovely if you want and most of all- you'll be able to enjoy being alive. It really is never too late
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Old 06-22-2017, 03:54 PM
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The witching hour.......

Ok I will not deny it I am really craving a drink. This is around the time I start to drink or earlier.
I love the taste, smell feeling of that first sip. But after that it all goes to hell.
I drink and drink and drink until I pass out on the couch and usually black out and somehow find my way to bed.
I never go out and drink for fun and to be social, I drink at home alone to numb the pain and get drunk.

So here I am writing about it instead of doing it. I always know what the end results will be but why does my mind / body still crave that first sip?

Insanity is the best answer I can come up with at the moment.
And no I am not going to have that first sip.

This ain't no technological breakdown
Oh no, this is the road to Hell
And all the roads jam up with credit
And there's nothing you can do
It's all just bits of paper
Flying away from you
Look out world take a good look
What comes down here
You must learn this lesson fast
And learn it well
This ain't no upwardly mobile freeway
Oh no, this is the road to Hell


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Old 06-23-2017, 07:06 AM
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Quick Check in. I did not drink yesterday and when I make it through today without a drink I will have 7 days alcohol free.

THANKS TO YOU ALL FOR THE SUPPORT.

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Old 06-23-2017, 08:54 AM
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Yay!!! So happy to hear 7 days in progress !!!!

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Congrats on your week Six

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Old 06-23-2017, 03:17 PM
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Great job on one week, Six. I will be 57 in a couple of weeks. Tomorrow I will have 18 months of sobriety. I don't have a spouse, a lover or children and at times I have felt despair and loneliness but things would be infinitely worse if I were drinking again. I do have great friends, a good therapist and I love doing volunteer work at a local museum; perhaps volunteering would be a good thing for you. It gets me out of my own head. I don't have any money or even a car but I do have self-respect, happiness and a sense of peace now. I wish all good things for you.
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Old 06-23-2017, 04:20 PM
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Hey nut, I'm a picker too, and close to your age (drank and drugged for 40 years). Keep it up. Maybe read my thread entitled "1274 days." True story. It is worth it, and you can do it.
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Good job 6string, we are with you all the way. Keep it going man.
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Old 06-23-2017, 04:29 PM
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I felt joy today

For the first time since I can remember I actually felt joy today.
I took my two wonderful doggies up to the lake and threw the ball for them and just enjoyed the moment clean and sober.
The dogs were so happy it brought me so much joy and happiness it is almost hard to explain.
Thank god for 7 days without a drink. There is hope for me as long as I don't pick up that first sip.
This is my friends signature and it brings me hope. Thank you Ladyblue0527

Sometimes easier said than done, but the happiest and most content I am in sobriety is when I'm fully accepting of the fact that there is no circumstance under which I can drink.

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Old 06-23-2017, 05:13 PM
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I gave up booze for butter pecan ice cream.

Nightly. Ice cream. It feels so much better in the morning.



Originally Posted by asixstringnut View Post
Today is day five and it is 6:23 pm here so I am feeling pretty confident that I am going to make it through the day.
Lots of self talk about the fact is that I can no longer drink. It is not an option that will work for me.
My body and soul are tired but I am sober today and looking forward to being the same tomorrow.
I feel like I could eat everything in the house. I am craving sweets and I just might cave in and get some Ben & Jerry's ice
cream. My waist line is the least of my worries at the moment.
I did not eat a bunch of carbs I just use to drink them all.



Alcohol is poison to me and I can no longer go there.

Thanks all of you for the support.

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Old 06-23-2017, 05:27 PM
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Originally Posted by asixstringnut View Post
For the first time since I can remember I actually felt joy today.
I took my two wonderful doggies up to the lake and threw the ball for them and just enjoyed the moment clean and sober.
The dogs were so happy it brought me so much joy and happiness it is almost hard to explain.
Thank god for 7 days without a drink. There is hope for me as long as I don't pick up that first sip.
This is my friends signature and it brings me hope. Thank you Ladyblue0527

Sometimes easier said than done, but the happiest and most content I am in sobriety is when I'm fully accepting of the fact that there is no circumstance under which I can drink.

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Asixstringnut, I'm doing virtual cartwheels right now over your post. Real joy, it feels good doesn't it? When you just accept it and give up the fight of trying to drink it frees up the necessary room to feel what you did tonight. It's pure, simple, and beautiful.
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Old 06-23-2017, 06:06 PM
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I'm so glad to read of your progress, Six. 7 days is a true miracle - you're beginning to heal.
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I'm so happy for you, asixstringnut!

7 days ... you're awesome!
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Old 06-23-2017, 07:52 PM
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It ain't over Yet Thanks to Rodney Crowell

Thank you all. Your kind reply's, attention and kindness bring tears to these watery eyes
I realize that the fog is lifting and I am not only feeling joy but I am actually starting to feel other things again.
It ain't all good I will grant you that but it beats being numb and dumb and full of alcohol passed out on the couch. Feeling might hurt and bring painful memory's but they wont kill you like drinking will.


Word from a favorite song writer Rodney Crowell

"It's like I'm sitting at a bus stop waiting for a train
Exactly how I got here is hard to explain
My heart's in the right place, what's left of it I guess
My heart ain't the problem, it's my mind that's a total mess
With these rickety old legs and watery eyes
It's hard to believe that I could pass for anybody's prize
Here's what I know about the gifts that God gave
You can't take 'em with you when you go to the grave

It ain't over yet, ask someone who ought to know
Not so very long ago we were both hung out to dry
It ain't over yet, you can mark my word
I don't care what you think you heard, we're still learning how to fly
It ain't over yet"


If you want to hear a beautiful song listen to the link below.

https://youtu.be/EFrpzPR6TLY

Thank you and a good night my friends. It is great to be sober today.

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This is such a great thread! asixstringnut . . . you are doing fantastic! Such an inspiration.
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Six - read this thread:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post6510150
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Old 06-23-2017, 08:30 PM
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Thank you PippoRossi I will read it.

Thnak you Pippo and Zero . That was a wonderful read.

thanks

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Old 06-23-2017, 08:45 PM
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Great job on one week, Six. I will be 57 in a couple of weeks. Tomorrow I will have 18 months of sobriety. I don't have a spouse, a lover or children and at times I have felt despair and loneliness but things would be infinitely worse if I were drinking again. I do have great friends, a good therapist and I love doing volunteer work at a local museum; perhaps volunteering would be a good thing for you. It gets me out of my own head. I don't have any money or even a car but I do have self-respect, happiness and a sense of peace now. I wish all good things for you.
Verdantia:
Thank you. I do need to get out and do something to help others. I don't know what that is yet but I am going to be on the lookout.

Somewhere in the big book I remember reading that we as alcoholics have a tendency to be a selfish self centered bunch.
Well that is sure true for me.

Thanks for the post.

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Good morning, Six! Hope all is well with you on this fine, sober day!!!

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