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Old 06-14-2017, 09:52 PM
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96 hours and taking it day by day...

Hi..I am just at 96 hours since my last drink. I've lurking here on and off. Finally got the courage to post, because I am all alone in this battle and I'm pretty sure support is a good idea. Feeling ok. Fighting some nausea on and off, mild anxiety, insomnia. I feel blessed, as I know it can be a lot worse. I have been up all night for three nights scared to tears of having a seizure or hallucinations.
Aside from these past four days, I have drank 4-8 glasses of wine per evening for 8 years, with a few failed attempts at sobriety mixed in. I never got more than two weeks. Until about three months ago, I also often drank during the day in order to numb the pain caused by my abusive cheating (also an addict-drugs) boyfriend. I finally figured out how to leave him, and now I live alone. Safe, so I no longer go to bed wondering if it will be him or the alcohol that kills me in my sleep. Now I know it will be the alcohol.
As for living alone, I was just laughing at myself, because today found a bottle I had hidden in my closet. LOL. Old habits are hard to break.
Anyway, I am just taking it one day at a time. Trying to appreciate the little things that sobriety brings, like enjoying a nice healthy dinner instead of trying to figure out what I ate, by going through the trash and inspecting the dirty dishes the next morning. Yes, I blacked out nearly every night.
I really want to stay sober and enjoy life to the fullest and stop having to hide my drinking from my friends and family.

That's all for now, Thanks for listening.
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Old 06-14-2017, 10:07 PM
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Welcome, Wonder65.

Sounds like you are in a really good position to recover. When I first got sober, age 22, the first thing I thought I needed was a relationship, be responsible, settle down etc. really wrong thinking, but i was lonely, which seems to be a part of this illness. Anyway it lasted only a few weeks and then I was out and found myself on my own in a little bedsit.

It was the best thing that could have happened. No domestic conflict, no restrictions on my time, I could pursue recovery at any time I wanted to, and I made the most of that. In addition, if dinner wasn't cooked, or the bed not made, there was only me to blame. It was very freeing, being able to come and go as I pleased.

For the first few months I did a lot of AA. Not just meetings, but learned how to incorporate the steps into my life. The result was permanent recovery.
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Welcome to SR Wonder
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Talk to me! You can do this. The day 1 thread is amazing.
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Join me in the chatroom actually
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Welcome- perhaps see a doc. About your anxiety and w/drawls.
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Welcome to SR!! You are past those first few initial days which are the hardest, and never have to go through those again. You will find lots of support on SR. Glad you are here.
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Hi Wonder65,

You may live alone, but you are not ALONE here!!
One day at a time.
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Welcome to the family. I hope our support can help you stay sober for good.
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Welcome!
There is a lot of support here. Its good to see that you want to get sober and remain sober. Stay close and post often if you need too.
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Welcome to SR! I don't envy you those first days of sobriety. Stick with it and sobriety and feeling well and rested will become the new normal!
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Welcome , I have only plucked up the courage to post on here a few days ago too , I am day 39 , take 1 day at a time , it will get easier
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Thanks to everyone for your responses. I appreciate all of your input and encouragement.
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