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Old 06-21-2017, 04:38 PM
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Old 06-27-2017, 08:29 AM
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I've noticed you've been spending a lot of time here on SR since you left Stewy. Don't feel that you can't talk with us, all are welcome here. How is the RR & CBT program going?
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Old 06-27-2017, 09:28 AM
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Yeah I've been reading here a bit

I'm on day 3 and I feel rough, just shattered, and not really feeling very good about things at all

I had a ton of anxiety at work today, just froze up a few times and went quiet

Just hope no one notices

I actually feel wrecked, my head is banging and I'm really tired and don't feel much like doing anything at all

Not much of an enthusiastic update but that's where I'm at I guess
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Old 06-27-2017, 09:32 AM
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What is 'RR'?
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Old 06-27-2017, 10:03 AM
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What is 'RR'?
Rational Recovery
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Old 06-27-2017, 10:16 AM
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Maybe try a bit of mindfulness meditation? That one is pretty good.

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Old 06-27-2017, 10:33 AM
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Good luck to you, im new here but everyone's story helps remind us were not alone, def not annoying.
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Old 06-27-2017, 10:37 AM
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Rational Recovery
I see..Thanks..
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Old 06-27-2017, 10:39 AM
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Stewy..May I ask what your 'breaking point' is that leads you to drink again?
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Old 06-27-2017, 10:50 AM
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I would say I've reached the breaking point where drinking isn't an option anymore

Just having a tough time facing up to the damage done
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Old 06-27-2017, 11:01 AM
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Hey Stewy

Day 3 is progress...better than Day 1...no? The past is the past...let go of it and forgive yourself.

Hang in there and keep moving forward.
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Old 06-27-2017, 11:05 AM
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Just having a tough time facing up to the damage done
That is a tough one! It has to be done though..You should face 'them' and be ready to accept whatever the outcome is. I've been writing out checks(upwards of $20k!) to friends/family today and am literally sick to my stomach! But, it's what I must face to move past it. I'm shocked at how many people I've let down and would love to be drunk doing this but, that's not an option for me. I hope you find what woks for you,brother!
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Old 06-27-2017, 12:26 PM
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Originally Posted by Stewy84 View Post
I would say I've reached the breaking point where drinking isn't an option anymore

Just having a tough time facing up to the damage done
((((Stewy)))).

Acknowledge and make amends where,possible.


Try to remember that each sober day lived with self-respect soon becomes a day in your past of which you can be proud. You are creating non-only a respectable future but a respectable past.

I am proud of you, Stewy.
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so what are you going to do DIFFERENT this time then, Stewy? your past sobriety plans haven't panned out too well.........what are you WILLING to do that is an sobriety-based ACTION?
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Try to remember that each sober day lived with self-respect soon becomes a day in your past of which you can be proud. You are creating non-only a respectable future but a respectable past.

What a brilliant way to look at it Soberleigh. I'm going to remember that.
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Old 06-27-2017, 01:14 PM
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Stewy, take heart. You made a huge impact on this site, especially for me. Your raw honesty was a breath of fresh air.
Take it easy and go well.
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Originally Posted by Stewy84 View Post
I would say I've reached the breaking point where drinking isn't an option anymore

Just having a tough time facing up to the damage done
If you are being honest with yourself, don't you think you reached that point a long time ago?

The best way to face the damage done is to stop drinking. And that is really the toughest part - facing our addiction. And accepting unconditionally that drinking even one sip of alcohol is not an option - period. We cannot undo the damage as it's already been done - but we can prove to others that we are serious about our sobriety now.
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Old 06-27-2017, 02:25 PM
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stewy, im glad ya decided to get some courage and post- good on ya!!
as scott mentioned, it seems youve said youve reached that breaking point where drinking isnt an option quite a few times,eh? maybe not in the same words, but it seems youve typed that a time or 9 in the last few months.

soooo, IF you want to get AND stay sober, clear away the wreckage, AND start loving yourself, its prolly time to stop going around the same old mountain,eh?

i assume yer gonna say rehabs still not an option?
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Old 06-27-2017, 03:38 PM
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Look Stewy, I did the same thing you are doing at your age. Looking for attention and sympathy. All it did was justify my addiction. The only thing that that led to was less attention and sympathy and a deeper and lonely spiral into addiction. I just hope you will find a way to get attention in a better way than drinking yourself to death. John
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Old 06-27-2017, 04:43 PM
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Hi Stewy

No advice and no slaps here Stewy.

I hope you find a way to stay sober - and be happy about it.

never give up looking

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