Day 49!!!
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Day 49!!!
I'm proud to say I'm on day 49. It hasn't been easy. Yesterday was my neighbor's and good friend's 40th surprise party. It was such a beautiful night and everyone was having their cocktails around a fire. It was a huge trigger for me. I felt really down. I kept telling myself how many days I've done and that I didn't want to blow that. I had a couple of ginger ales then said good night around 9 and came home. I'm sure there will be many more of those occasions this summer. I feel proud of myself this morning but I need to stay strong during those trigger moments.
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Congratulations myluckyday on 49 days 🎉🎉🎉
It sounds like when you were watching people drinking cocktails around the fire you felt like you were maybe missing out on something enjoyable? If that was the case I'd try to remind myself the damage that alcohol caused me and that for me it brings nothing but anxiety, shame, guilt and regret and that there would be nothing enjoyable about it? There will be reasons you decided to embrace sobriety and it's during these trigger moments that we may need to remind ourselves of these? Although I am on only on day 13 now...I did have 5 months of sobriety last year and had experience of getting through such trigger moments such as parties and holidays...I found the above helpful as it meant I wasn't 'white knuckling' my way through such occasionas, I wasn't drinking because I genuinely didn't want to...until I did of course and fast forward 1.5 years down the line and here I am again at Day 13. Looks like I should have taken my own advice 😉 anyway...
Wishing you well on the rest of your recovery journey x
It sounds like when you were watching people drinking cocktails around the fire you felt like you were maybe missing out on something enjoyable? If that was the case I'd try to remind myself the damage that alcohol caused me and that for me it brings nothing but anxiety, shame, guilt and regret and that there would be nothing enjoyable about it? There will be reasons you decided to embrace sobriety and it's during these trigger moments that we may need to remind ourselves of these? Although I am on only on day 13 now...I did have 5 months of sobriety last year and had experience of getting through such trigger moments such as parties and holidays...I found the above helpful as it meant I wasn't 'white knuckling' my way through such occasionas, I wasn't drinking because I genuinely didn't want to...until I did of course and fast forward 1.5 years down the line and here I am again at Day 13. Looks like I should have taken my own advice 😉 anyway...
Wishing you well on the rest of your recovery journey x
Keep going, it gets better. 
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Hi myluckylady and great job on big 49
my sponsor wouldve never allowed me around any alcohol at parties or otherwise in early sobriety
i still dont ever hang around drinkers
he wouldve said if youre hangin around alcohol you aint serious about stayin sober
not my opinion just my experience
God bless
my sponsor wouldve never allowed me around any alcohol at parties or otherwise in early sobriety
i still dont ever hang around drinkers
he wouldve said if youre hangin around alcohol you aint serious about stayin sober
not my opinion just my experience
God bless
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Unfortunately just about everyone I know drinks but most of them can do it responsibly. I think if I couldn't socialize with them or go to any occasions it would make things worse for me. I still want to enjoy life. I just tell myself that I don't drink and it's ok if others around me are.
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