Day One again... But this time, somethings different
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Day One again... But this time, somethings different
I have tried unsuccessfully to either moderate my drinking or white knuckle being sober. Going on 3 or 4? years now. I have two sons. One is 2.5 and one just turned one. How the hell have I been drinking this much and still taking care of them? A lot of personal sacrifice on my part I guess. Most mornings are dreadful. I talked to my husband in the middle of the night and Begged him for help. I am telling my parents today I have a problem (which is the scariest part in this) I feel like I will have let them down yet again. I am even looking into rehab this time. I have learned I cannot do this on my own anymore. What I have been trying hasn't worked. I need help. That's as simple as it gets. I NEED HELP. I hope I get it. There's never a good time to quit is there.
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Cleo - you are young and have an awareness that something is wrong. USE this...do not put it on hold. AA meetings- look/go to rehab. Get a counsellor. Do whatever it takes. The progressive creeping up of alcoholism is dangerous and subtle. If you accept you need help- as you have, then listen to what is offered. Other cannot 'cure' you or rescue you- only you can do that. It is not a path you need walk alone. SR is very good for me in the night. BUT f-f is also very important to me- for charging up my sober battery to prevent relapse. I was sincerely remorseful every day after drinking and stuff going wrong. Keep your momentum going. Empathy and support to you. You need to stop drinking for -you first. Not for your family- for you. Otherwise they will suffer as well. Go to a meeting. They do not bite. PJ
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Glad you made those moves Cleopatra....I personally feel honesty is the cornerstone of recovery...especially to ourselves. I hope you can make the best use of whatever support becomes available. I wasted several moments of my life with my children because of my drinking....glad to hear you are making this change while they are so young.
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Reaching out to those closest may seem like the best option, though unless they have a drinking issue themselves, they won't understand.
This is great you are reaching out to this forum, there is also AA meetings that will help you on your journey.
This is great you are reaching out to this forum, there is also AA meetings that will help you on your journey.
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I'm on day 7 and can relate to your words. It's different for me this time too. I have accepted that I cannot drink. Moderation is not an option. I am working on my sobriety instead of thinking it will come by chance or simply because I want it. In another thread someone said sobriety is like have a second job. I concur, it's something we have to work on every day. Wishing you well in your recovery. 
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