Day 9. APARTMENT LOOKS AMAZING! FINISHED FIRST EVER SOBER CLEANING
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Day 9. APARTMENT LOOKS AMAZING! FINISHED FIRST EVER SOBER CLEANING
It took me 3 days, but every moment was literally really good learning about myself. It was strangely fulfilling. A strange and beautiful joy to clean this way (meaning, NOT DRUNK).
And now ... I can start YOGA tomorrow!!!!
People... Whats going on inside of me, and so quickly also taking place OUTSIDE of me, is worth its weight in Gold.
I have had stressors, but I am handling them better as I let go and trust the process I am in.
I did, however, again today, have a strong craving. And its so weird how you forget about the absolute HELL that follows the drink.
I was out walking my dog when it happened, and I quickly reverted my thoughts to ... "BUT HEY... Arent you forgetting about the HANGOVER??"
And then I remembered how I NEVER WANT TO FEEL THAT WAY AGAIN.
Not sure why I am having these stronger cravings these past two days.
But I am posting here so far every time, and utilizing prayer.
And now ... I can start YOGA tomorrow!!!!
People... Whats going on inside of me, and so quickly also taking place OUTSIDE of me, is worth its weight in Gold.
I have had stressors, but I am handling them better as I let go and trust the process I am in.
I did, however, again today, have a strong craving. And its so weird how you forget about the absolute HELL that follows the drink.
I was out walking my dog when it happened, and I quickly reverted my thoughts to ... "BUT HEY... Arent you forgetting about the HANGOVER??"
And then I remembered how I NEVER WANT TO FEEL THAT WAY AGAIN.
Not sure why I am having these stronger cravings these past two days.
But I am posting here so far every time, and utilizing prayer.
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Thanks You Amazing Family <3
And ....Please forgive my extreme joy, lol.
I know it might be premature... I am still so early in.
But I have been so apathetic and depressed for so many years now, that I can't help rejoicing in this relief I am feeling. Not just relief, but simple joys ... Simple every day joys.
I woke up yesterday morning at 6 AM and made myself banana pancakes. I covered them in butter and honey. Something as simple and as wonderful as pancakes in the morning hasnt happened (not like that) for YEARS.
To any Day 1's out there... Sober life is FULL.
Full of good, high-quality moments.
Drinking tarnishes and cheapens every good moment.
But I was at the point of knowing this with certainty. I was at the point where I realized that there was not one time of being drunk that I look back on and feel happy or grateful for. Not even wedding receptions.
Not during a sunset sitting at a beach.
Not before sex.
Not with food.
Not while watching a band at a concert I drove miles to see.
None of the moments I was drunk.... was I also PRESENT to life.
I was only checking OUT of the moment. Cheapening it. Taking the gifts life has to offer me for granted and throwing them into the trash.
And ....Please forgive my extreme joy, lol.
I know it might be premature... I am still so early in.
But I have been so apathetic and depressed for so many years now, that I can't help rejoicing in this relief I am feeling. Not just relief, but simple joys ... Simple every day joys.
I woke up yesterday morning at 6 AM and made myself banana pancakes. I covered them in butter and honey. Something as simple and as wonderful as pancakes in the morning hasnt happened (not like that) for YEARS.
To any Day 1's out there... Sober life is FULL.
Full of good, high-quality moments.
Drinking tarnishes and cheapens every good moment.
But I was at the point of knowing this with certainty. I was at the point where I realized that there was not one time of being drunk that I look back on and feel happy or grateful for. Not even wedding receptions.
Not during a sunset sitting at a beach.
Not before sex.
Not with food.
Not while watching a band at a concert I drove miles to see.
None of the moments I was drunk.... was I also PRESENT to life.
I was only checking OUT of the moment. Cheapening it. Taking the gifts life has to offer me for granted and throwing them into the trash.
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Good for you Herculana! Those cravings can be sneaky but for me they really subsided by day 4.
"Drinking tarnishes and cheapens every good moment". I couldn't agree with you more with this statement.
Last Aug I took a 2 week trip to WA state to visit friends, explore that beautiful state and to have some outdoor fun, well I pretty much alienated my good friends and wasted 95% of my time there sitting in my hotel room drinking.
I think back on that and all the other things I ruined with booze and it helps me through the day
"Drinking tarnishes and cheapens every good moment". I couldn't agree with you more with this statement.
Last Aug I took a 2 week trip to WA state to visit friends, explore that beautiful state and to have some outdoor fun, well I pretty much alienated my good friends and wasted 95% of my time there sitting in my hotel room drinking.
I think back on that and all the other things I ruined with booze and it helps me through the day
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