sweetichick

I'm feeling the full range of emotions after the breakup with my friend. It took all my willpower not to go to the pub today. He was so abusive and controlling constantly pressuring me to stop smoking so I could pay him to do more work on my house.Then he helped himself to the front door key so he could wander in and out whenever he wanted. I'm getting more money tomorrow and already worried I will try to drown my emotions. I went to his house on purpose to ask him for a drink knowing he would breakup with me. It was stupid and after the ensuing fight I went on a binge for a few days. I know his story to everyone will be that I am a useless drunk. Finding this so hard. I have reconnected with my friends though so I am not totally alone.

Dee74

That all sounds like a lot of effort going nowhere if I'm honest sweetichick.

I really think you need to start putting that effort into yourself, into your recovery, and into making your life better sweetichick.

Don't you think it's time to change things up?

ps change the locks. If you're renting, no one else should have a key.

If you own the house only the people you want should have a key.

D

sweetichick

Thanks Dee. You are right. Too much effort.

tiffanyeagle

focus on you and your health.

sweetichick

It's day 3 and I'm feeling much better and more optimistic. My friend was too much effort. Time to focus on myself and my recovery plan. I know I can do this.

SimplyFree

When I started working sobriety, I lost my best friend and others. I guess I'm " in between " friends, whatever that means! But I have no complaints, day 36 feels right, honest and healthy.....notice the word easy isn't there. But totally worth it!

Dee74

Glad you feel better sweetichick - what are you going to do with the day?

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sweetichick

Day 3 so far so good. I went grocery shopping and tonight are having dinner with friends. The bottle shop is whispering come get a drink to take away your anxiety. I'm not listening and are distracting myself.

Delilah1

Hi Sweetichick,

Glad you've made it through day three, Do you have plans to help you stay sober this week? Did you look into getting your locks changed yet?