Tynesider22

Hi.

Found this forum through Google. I admit I've got a drinking problem and I have done for years. My longest period of sobriety was just over ten weeks, but these days I'm lucky if I can do two consecutive days.

I don't even like drinking any more, but I feel like I physically need it. I go to bed saying "tomorrow", but tomorrow comes and I feel that bad, I need alcohol.

I'm in debt and have pawned / sold most of my stuff to buy alcohol.

I have told my GP who referred me to a local group, but I was missing appointments all the time and it just wasn't working, it felt like a telling off.

My physical and mental health is shot. Not the first time I've ended up in hospital due to injuring myself due to alcohol. I've joined here hoping to find support in the comfort of my own home.

Thank you for allowing me to join you on this forum.

FreeOwl

So what I hear you saying is 'I am powerless over alcohol and my life has become unmanageable".

Welcome to step one.

You are officially on your way to recovery....

Now simply choose.... become willing.... and don't drink today.

Shitzupuppy

Welcome, read a lot of threads and ask a lot of questions! You can do it.

Tynesider22

Thank you for your kind comments.

Been on the phone to a family member, heading round there today, probably will stop over tonight.

I think in the early days I can't be trusted on my own and he certainly won't let me finish a bottle of vodka.

Dee74

Welcome Tynesider

If thats the case maybe you need to go back to your GP?
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Tynesider22

Today is going to have to be a case of damage limitation. I was sadly three glasses down before I just thought "I'm getting sick of this".

I'm not using that as an excuse to "have one last session". I've done that before, it never works.

I'll go mad tomorrow, I know I will, but I'm aiming to make it my first full alcohol free day in a good while. I'll need you good folks help though.

tufty13

Welcome tynesider.

There's some great support and wisdom here. Good luck on your journey. :-)

PhoenixJ

Good advice here, welcome

Tynesider22

Thank you once again.

Today is day zero, tomorrow is day one. However, I am round my brother's and he's just offered me a beer. I politely declined.

Never thought I'd do that this morning.

MrMcTell

Hi Tynesider.

Sounds to me like you have reached the point where quitting is the sensible thing to do. Lots a lots of us wasted years and years stuck in that kind of place. Not worth it.

I'm guessing you are in Newcastle/ Gateshead. When I lived in Newcastle many years ago my GP referred me to NECA (North East Council on Addictions) which is city-run treatment center for addictions (inc. alcoholism). It's free. I met with an addictions councilor there while when I was truly at the end of my tether and it really helped. [I was young and stupid and not ready to quit then, but that's another story...]

Other than that, speaking honestly with your GP is a great idea anyway.

I have found using this site a great help. Every day without fail to keep my focus on recovery. Read and post lots. It really does help. Join the May Class.

The most useful thing I learned early on is a few simple ideas from AVRT. Google it or see the Secular Connections forum here. Really helpful in stepping away from your addiction and recognizing that cravings and thoughts of drinking are a product of being addicted. This makes it much easier to ignore them.

Good luck. Lots of support here.

SoberLeigh

Welcome to SR, Tynesider; so glad you found us.