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Originally Posted by Stewy84 
Time for me to get very real and serious about volleying this addiction crap into touch and pressing on with important matters like my family, relationships and job
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Originally Posted by Stewy84
AV wants me to come on here and lie about quitting, AV wants my drivers licence, job and family taken away, AV wants me to sit on the couch for hours in my room, wasting time away.
when i stopped living in the problem and began living in the solution, the problem went away
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And sadly, you will be doing the same thing that results in your continuing to drink without doing the real work such as meetings, CBT, etc. You know what you need to do, you just don't want to. That's the truth Stewy and you know it. John
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Hey Stewy - You're not the victim here.
It's not happening to you- you're bringing it all on yourself.
You're the one in control here - any time you want the carnage to stop, you can stop it.
It won't be easy and it's probably going to mean some pretty big changes...
but is your current way of life worth keeping?
I doubt it.
D
It's not happening to you- you're bringing it all on yourself.
You're the one in control here - any time you want the carnage to stop, you can stop it.
It won't be easy and it's probably going to mean some pretty big changes...
but is your current way of life worth keeping?
I doubt it.
D
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Originally Posted by Stewy84
I'm just emptying my room of cans from the last few nights of carnage
It's not a pretty sight
Everyone is totally right, I've got to end this and take robust action with immediate effect starting now and continuing indefinitely.
I've got to start engaging in the reality of life and not keep looking to escape, my life isn't so ridiculously terrible that I have to drink poison just to get through.
My nephew is staying at our house at the minute and I'm going to my daughters school summer fair later, I've also got tickets to take my daughter to a gig on Sunday.
I'm posting here because I know that I must never ever drink again full stop- no moderating, no selecting certain "cheat days", no saying I'll quit tomorrow- it's all AV BS that has tricked me for as long as I can remember and I'm calling it out now because I want my life back.
AV wants me to come on here and lie about quitting, AV wants my drivers licence, job and family taken away, AV wants me to sit on the couch for hours in my room, wasting time away.
Time for me to get very real and serious about volleying this addiction crap into touch and pressing on with important matters like my family, relationships and job
It's not a pretty sight
Everyone is totally right, I've got to end this and take robust action with immediate effect starting now and continuing indefinitely.
I've got to start engaging in the reality of life and not keep looking to escape, my life isn't so ridiculously terrible that I have to drink poison just to get through.
My nephew is staying at our house at the minute and I'm going to my daughters school summer fair later, I've also got tickets to take my daughter to a gig on Sunday.
I'm posting here because I know that I must never ever drink again full stop- no moderating, no selecting certain "cheat days", no saying I'll quit tomorrow- it's all AV BS that has tricked me for as long as I can remember and I'm calling it out now because I want my life back.
AV wants me to come on here and lie about quitting, AV wants my drivers licence, job and family taken away, AV wants me to sit on the couch for hours in my room, wasting time away.
Time for me to get very real and serious about volleying this addiction crap into touch and pressing on with important matters like my family, relationships and job
Put everything to sobriety, absolutely everything.
Everything depends on it, Stewy.
Trouble could be just a blink away!!
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It shouldn't be too long before I hear from the CBT people- they said it was about a 4 week waiting list and it's been around that time.
I have already committed to engage when that starts
I've emptied my room of cans, house is alcohol free, my mum has my cash card
I've got routines written out for the next few days full of alcohol free things including workouts, family visits and house tasks
Gonna give this my full attention
I have already committed to engage when that starts
I've emptied my room of cans, house is alcohol free, my mum has my cash card
I've got routines written out for the next few days full of alcohol free things including workouts, family visits and house tasks
Gonna give this my full attention
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Originally Posted by Stewy84
It shouldn't be too long before I hear from the CBT people- they said it was about a 4 week waiting list and it's been around that time.
I have already committed to engage when that starts
I've emptied my room of cans, house is alcohol free, my mum has my cash card
I've got routines written out for the next few days full of alcohol free things including workouts, family visits and house tasks
Gonna give this my full attention
I have already committed to engage when that starts
I've emptied my room of cans, house is alcohol free, my mum has my cash card
I've got routines written out for the next few days full of alcohol free things including workouts, family visits and house tasks
Gonna give this my full attention
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Originally Posted by Stewy84
It shouldn't be too long before I hear from the CBT people- they said it was about a 4 week waiting list and it's been around that time.
I have already committed to engage when that starts
I've emptied my room of cans, house is alcohol free, my mum has my cash card
I've got routines written out for the next few days full of alcohol free things including workouts, family visits and house tasks
Gonna give this my full attention
I have already committed to engage when that starts
I've emptied my room of cans, house is alcohol free, my mum has my cash card
I've got routines written out for the next few days full of alcohol free things including workouts, family visits and house tasks
Gonna give this my full attention
Instead of waiting to hear from the CBT folks, why not call them today and ask them how things are going in the process?
Getting a routine written down is good too - but how about adding some recovery specific things to that list - like heading to an AA or NA ( or other recovery ) meeting? Or perhaps setting time aside to specifically spend time here on SR and nothing else?
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Hey,Buddy..I've read your threads in the past but, not sure if I've ever replied.. Just know that when I was watching the sunrise the other day I was actually thinking "I hope that Stewy guy is doing OK"..and like us drunks that was not normal for me..to be worried about others,much less some stranger(to me) from a website..I really think you need to get your 'ducks in a row' and seek impatient treatment. You can beat this with the proper help and plan(s).
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Originally Posted by DontRemember
.. Just know that when I was watching the sunrise the other day I was actually thinking "I hope that Stewy guy is doing OK"..(s).
Stewy, we all are behind you and we sincerely want you to find recovery again. YOU CAN DO THIS MY FRIEND!
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Originally Posted by Stewy84
Going to leave the forum for awhile guys , not in a good place. Not comfortable with going to rehab.
Going now, I'll see everyone soon
Stewy x
Going now, I'll see everyone soon
Stewy x
Hope you come back very, very soon.
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Originally Posted by Stewy84
Going to leave the forum for awhile guys , not in a good place. Not comfortable with going to rehab.
Going now, I'll see everyone soon
Stewy x
Going now, I'll see everyone soon
Stewy x
I think this is a bad move that follows on from all the other bad decisions you're making right now.
stepping away from the only support you have is not the way to get your life back together.
I mean - seriously - what are you going to do away from SR besides drink unhindered?
D
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Originally Posted by Dee74
There were a lot of other suggestions too Stewy.
I think this is a bad move that follows on from all the other bad decisions you're making right now.
stepping away from the only support you have is not the way to get your life back together.
I mean - seriously - what are you going to do away from SR besides drink unhindered?
D
I think this is a bad move that follows on from all the other bad decisions you're making right now.
stepping away from the only support you have is not the way to get your life back together.
I mean - seriously - what are you going to do away from SR besides drink unhindered?
D
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Originally Posted by Stewy84
I need to leave here because I'm abusing the trust of members on the forum
This to me is unacceptable
This to me is unacceptable
We desperately want to see you sober.
You need to desperately want sobriety, Stewy. It's not going to magically happen. It's going to take work and lots of time and effort.
AA meetings, counselling, inpatient, intensive outpatient therapy!!!
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