3 Years and Brutal Honesty
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3 Years and Brutal Honesty
Good Morning and Happy Mother's Day 
2 days ago on May 12 I passed 3 years sober. I will be honest; this is one of the easiest things I've ever done. Really. Choosing not to drink is ridiculously easy for me.
The hard part is letting loved ones know how I feel about not drinking. I still would love to get drunk every day. I still miss the unwound feeling that comes at the end of the day with drink. I even miss the taste of hard liquor on occasion. I love the feeling of mindlessness and carefree(ness) of the buzz. This brutal honesty makes the people who care for and support me very uncomfortable. And I completely understand. However I won't lie and tell them I hate alcohol and never think about it because I do. A little everyday. Because even after 3 years and the trauma I survived, a stiff drink still sounds good. It might always sound good.
I don't pick up because as much as i want to drink, I DON'T want to drink more. I have become more successful than I ever dreamed to be in Sobriety. And logic dictates that to keep my successes and goals moving foward I should continue what's worked so far. And I will.
But if asked, then yes, a drink does sound good. But only in theory.
Cheers!
~Bunnez
2 days ago on May 12 I passed 3 years sober. I will be honest; this is one of the easiest things I've ever done. Really. Choosing not to drink is ridiculously easy for me.
The hard part is letting loved ones know how I feel about not drinking. I still would love to get drunk every day. I still miss the unwound feeling that comes at the end of the day with drink. I even miss the taste of hard liquor on occasion. I love the feeling of mindlessness and carefree(ness) of the buzz. This brutal honesty makes the people who care for and support me very uncomfortable. And I completely understand. However I won't lie and tell them I hate alcohol and never think about it because I do. A little everyday. Because even after 3 years and the trauma I survived, a stiff drink still sounds good. It might always sound good.
I don't pick up because as much as i want to drink, I DON'T want to drink more. I have become more successful than I ever dreamed to be in Sobriety. And logic dictates that to keep my successes and goals moving foward I should continue what's worked so far. And I will.
But if asked, then yes, a drink does sound good. But only in theory.
Cheers!
~Bunnez
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Congrats on three years! And- congrats on being rigorously honest. It's not always easy to be truly honest about the "unpleasant" or "bad" things we feel and want like you talk about here. But I do believe it is so critical to accept the good and the bad.
Thanks for sharing!
Thanks for sharing!
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That's really the reason all of us drink to excess in the first place is for the "high" from alcohol, though eventually hang it up as that high also comes with severe consequences.
I think we'd all be lying if we said we didn't like the feeling of being drunk, but understand the punishment that comes with it, just isn't worth it.
I think we'd all be lying if we said we didn't like the feeling of being drunk, but understand the punishment that comes with it, just isn't worth it.
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Maybe I'm making things out to be harder than they are. At 39yo, I can't really process alcohol well anymore, and I feel lethargic, tired, anti-social and anxious when I drink. I'm not sure why I do it...
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