Today
 

I WALKED TO THE BOTANICAL GARDENS THIS AFTERNOON. I did not feel particularly motivated- but I made myself. Walking past the R/A Hospital- on a whim- I stepped up on the low wall that separated the hospital frontage from Nth Tce. No problems. A few people looked puzzled. Nearer the B/G I did the same. Using both legs to propel myself to the top of the low wall. Last time I did this- I could not do this- 6 weeks out of coma- on ‘leave’ from the burns unit, wearing cheap pj wear my bro had bought me. I could not weight bear and found it difficult even remembering where the burns unit was.

In the Bot-G I walked slowly- just breathing. Then I sat for a time- eyes closed and just listened. My pulse dropped, my breathing slowed. For a moment- in the moment. Sitting on a bench- under a pergola, connected to the ground. Birds above, children talking about food. Birds, a jet and traffic in the background. For a moment connected. The last time I was here- I was in pain, felt lost with no real connection to the world. Today there was a moment. No rainbows. The anxiety returns and so does the sadness. Today there was a moment.

:hug: Pj. big hugs

You are such a gifted writer...I have chills.

And I am so happy for you.

Sending you a hug.

A great post PJ - hope you bought some peace home with you :)

D

Awesome post - life gets better for us all 😃💪🏻

Beautiful Phoenix.

I wish you many more "moments", PJ. :hug:

There will be many moments out there
to experience. When they happen, grasp
them, treasure them, collect them to mind
and remind yourself that there are many
more to come.

I don't know when or where, but they
will come and I can hardly wait for them
because I know they will make me feel
sooooo good. :)

Those little miracles of joy are yours to keep. :)

Excellent.

All it takes is one moment to feel deeply that power in a moment.

These lead us on, to other moments.

Thanks for sharing.

This is great :)

I'm happy to hear you had a moment, I hope there is many more to come!

Your post is also very encouraging also, so thank you.

Thankyou.

It's a beautiful garden too....

Lovely PJ ❤❤❤

Great post PhoenixJ, congratulations to you for making yourself go to the botanical gardens.

Love this, PJ! Such progress from such a terrible place you were then.

Magnificent! :c011:

PJ, you are healing, slowly but surely.

Simply beautiful.

:grouphug:

Love you, PJ. Your words are a gift, as always.

You are an amazingly gifted writer.
Best Wishes
C