Ok so i did something dumb, i drank...
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Ok so i did something dumb, i drank...
Ok i was doing so well, i was at 110 days sober and i went and drank, and smoked. The good news is this was 2 weeks ago and i haven't drunk since, but damn... im so annoyed.
Does anyone know if ive got to start from square 1 again in terms of the mental and physical health?
Someone on here kindly sent me a link to flare up periods and how studies were done on drug and alcohol abusers when they entered a coma. It showed that a 30, 60 90 and 100 days there was a spike in chemicals that made you want to drink again. Does anyone know if ive put myself back to square because of drinking again?
I'll deal with it, but i really dont want to have destroyed everything in one stupid moment.
Does anyone know if ive got to start from square 1 again in terms of the mental and physical health?
Someone on here kindly sent me a link to flare up periods and how studies were done on drug and alcohol abusers when they entered a coma. It showed that a 30, 60 90 and 100 days there was a spike in chemicals that made you want to drink again. Does anyone know if ive put myself back to square because of drinking again?
I'll deal with it, but i really dont want to have destroyed everything in one stupid moment.
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Ok well i cant cry over spilled milk... Its done, i cant change that. I can only change today and how i conduct myself going forward.
But yes, its been harder again to not drink but i have the same levels of resolve as before. Sorry i let you all (and myself) down here.
Time to move forward again.
"Because if I am back at square 1, I might as well drink..."
Don't let a tiny relapse, call it a slip, turn into a return to the abyss of drinking.
Be very careful Reformation. I drank once after being sober for 11 months. At first I thought I would be OK, in fact...I thought I might just be able to drink again because it was easy for me to put it down immediately after I drank. Slowly but surely it crept up on me and I was right back at it.
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Yeah it did kinda sound like that didnt it? Hmm! You're right though, i wont let this turn into another decent into the problems of before.
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Be very careful Reformation. I drank once after being sober for 11 months. At first I thought I would be OK, in fact...I thought I might just be able to drink again because it was easy for me to put it down immediately after I drank. Slowly but surely it crept up on me and I was right back at it.
I'm not going to lie, part of my brain has been saying that im all better now. I can drink 'normally' again. But i cant, i still drank until i was blind drunk, i just couldnt handle as much as before, because ive not touched it in over 3 months.
As has been said, i need to be very careful i think.
Thanks for the input guys.
Those flare up periods come from Terence Gorski I think. Never heard the coma patient angle before tho
Ref, all I can tell you is I've passed all those periods and I'm still sober
'Flare up of chemicals' or not , we're not puppets...we can stay sober
Make yourself a good recovery plan - for the good times as wel as the bad. Think of it as a lifestyle change, not a deprivation or a chore.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html
If you find yourself in trouble, come here or access whatever other support you have before you drink.
You'll get back every bit of effort you put in - I promise
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Ref, all I can tell you is I've passed all those periods and I'm still sober
'Flare up of chemicals' or not , we're not puppets...we can stay sober
Make yourself a good recovery plan - for the good times as wel as the bad. Think of it as a lifestyle change, not a deprivation or a chore.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html
If you find yourself in trouble, come here or access whatever other support you have before you drink.
You'll get back every bit of effort you put in - I promise
D
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Those flare up periods come from Terence Gorski I think. Never heard the coma patient angle before tho
Ref, all I can tell you is I've passed all those periods and I'm still sober
'Flare up of chemicals' or not , we're not puppets...we can stay sober
Make yourself a good recovery plan - for the good times as wel as the bad. Think of it as a lifestyle change, not a deprivation or a chore.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html
If you find yourself in trouble, come here or access whatever other support you have before you drink.
You'll get back every bit of effort you put in - I promise
D
Ref, all I can tell you is I've passed all those periods and I'm still sober
'Flare up of chemicals' or not , we're not puppets...we can stay sober
Make yourself a good recovery plan - for the good times as wel as the bad. Think of it as a lifestyle change, not a deprivation or a chore.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html
If you find yourself in trouble, come here or access whatever other support you have before you drink.
You'll get back every bit of effort you put in - I promise
D
Reform,
Those flare ups, to blind drunk, are when us alkys get into trouble.
A gal at my AA meetings killed herself during a flare up. I think Robin Williams did as well.
Try to remember that.....and if you start to slip again..... don't beat yourself up too bad during the binge.
Remember....110 days w 1 slip is pretty awesome.
Fear booze. It is not to be toyed w. It is a killer.
Don't believe the hype. Dont believe tv.
Chasing that euphoria, once drunk, is what we alky.s do.
That is why we get soooo drunk.
Most normies stop at 1 or 2. Drinking 1 or 2 drinks is a joke to us alkys. What is the point?
Make a plan and stay clean.
Thanks.
Those flare ups, to blind drunk, are when us alkys get into trouble.
A gal at my AA meetings killed herself during a flare up. I think Robin Williams did as well.
Try to remember that.....and if you start to slip again..... don't beat yourself up too bad during the binge.
Remember....110 days w 1 slip is pretty awesome.
Fear booze. It is not to be toyed w. It is a killer.
Don't believe the hype. Dont believe tv.
Chasing that euphoria, once drunk, is what we alky.s do.
That is why we get soooo drunk.
Most normies stop at 1 or 2. Drinking 1 or 2 drinks is a joke to us alkys. What is the point?
Make a plan and stay clean.
Thanks.
I "tested" having a beer after nine months sober.
All that happened was exactly what anyone who has drunk to excess would expect to happen - I quickly went to drinking beer on a regular basis and after four days straight I realised my folly.
I've stopped again and I don't have anywhere near the same levels of craving or screaming AV that I had a year ago, but still, it would have been better if I hadn't done it.
You're not back at square one because you've made massive strides forward.
I just had to find out for myself if I really had a problem with drink. And I do. That knowledge is taking me forward with more resolution to not drink than I had when I quit last time.
Don't beat yourself up over the lapse. All non-drinking days count towards making your life a better one.
All that happened was exactly what anyone who has drunk to excess would expect to happen - I quickly went to drinking beer on a regular basis and after four days straight I realised my folly.
I've stopped again and I don't have anywhere near the same levels of craving or screaming AV that I had a year ago, but still, it would have been better if I hadn't done it.
You're not back at square one because you've made massive strides forward.
I just had to find out for myself if I really had a problem with drink. And I do. That knowledge is taking me forward with more resolution to not drink than I had when I quit last time.
Don't beat yourself up over the lapse. All non-drinking days count towards making your life a better one.
Hi Reformation,
I just recently had 120 days and drank, 3 times over the course of 8 days. Its been 5 days since I drank. At first I was wondering the same things as you, but I already feel much stronger than I did at 5 days the last time I quit. And I learned a few things. There is no fixing this, I can't drink. And I loved my sober time, its not that hard and it's way better than being a drunk and hungover mess. The 4 months I let my body heal must have done some good, right? So no matter what I am in a better place than I was 4.5 months ago. When I get to a year I will look back and say... I quit drinking a year ago with a slip 4 months in. And I'll be proud of myself and feel great. I hope you join me
I just recently had 120 days and drank, 3 times over the course of 8 days. Its been 5 days since I drank. At first I was wondering the same things as you, but I already feel much stronger than I did at 5 days the last time I quit. And I learned a few things. There is no fixing this, I can't drink. And I loved my sober time, its not that hard and it's way better than being a drunk and hungover mess. The 4 months I let my body heal must have done some good, right? So no matter what I am in a better place than I was 4.5 months ago. When I get to a year I will look back and say... I quit drinking a year ago with a slip 4 months in. And I'll be proud of myself and feel great. I hope you join me
I think for me subconsciencely i romanticize "anniversary" milestones. No doubt it is nice to celebrate those days but in actuallity it is just another day. I try not to get caught up too much with the milestone days because day milestone + 1 day could lead to a let down and maybe a case of the f-its. This is a cunning disease we have. I'm on day 89 right now and it's Friday so no doubt i've had cravings today. They pass though. Good luck!
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Hi Reformation,
I just recently had 120 days and drank, 3 times over the course of 8 days. Its been 5 days since I drank. At first I was wondering the same things as you, but I already feel much stronger than I did at 5 days the last time I quit. And I learned a few things. There is no fixing this, I can't drink. And I loved my sober time, its not that hard and it's way better than being a drunk and hungover mess. The 4 months I let my body heal must have done some good, right? So no matter what I am in a better place than I was 4.5 months ago. When I get to a year I will look back and say... I quit drinking a year ago with a slip 4 months in. And I'll be proud of myself and feel great. I hope you join me
I just recently had 120 days and drank, 3 times over the course of 8 days. Its been 5 days since I drank. At first I was wondering the same things as you, but I already feel much stronger than I did at 5 days the last time I quit. And I learned a few things. There is no fixing this, I can't drink. And I loved my sober time, its not that hard and it's way better than being a drunk and hungover mess. The 4 months I let my body heal must have done some good, right? So no matter what I am in a better place than I was 4.5 months ago. When I get to a year I will look back and say... I quit drinking a year ago with a slip 4 months in. And I'll be proud of myself and feel great. I hope you join me
Thanks for the uplifting message, i appreciate it! And you're right, i can look back and say it was a blip. The important thing is to not drink again.
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