jacksdaughter

Good Morning SR
Day 4 this is probably the longest I have ever done this. Last night I went to the gym after work as it didn't matter if I got home later no happy hour.

I've been giving a lot of thought on how this all started. When I was a very young women I made a huge mistake and destroyed my marriage and hurt my children. I truly believe I could just never forgive myself so the drinking helped me bury my shame and hide the pain. My life did turn around, my children are grown and seem well adjusted and successfully but I never really did forgive myself. I find it ironic that I started drinking more than I should could because I hurt my life now I'm trying to stay away from it to improve my life and my marriage.

Anyway I think this sharing is helping. I have never in all these 30 years really expressed to anyone these feelings. Maybe now that I'm allowing myself to face them I can.

So I hope everyone has a wonderful day today.

mejorando

It´s good to reflect on things and reach out. I hope you´re able to forgive yourself because we all deserve forgiveness for what we´ve done

Treerat66

Congratulations on day 4

Awake61

I needed to read your post this morning. Related so much to it. Thank you! We can do this!

Fly N Buy

After many years of drinking I simply was sick and tired of being stuck in the muck and the mess life had become. When I accepted reality and sought help I began to change. After 35 years of drinking this was it easy.

Good for you on taking those first steps. I found a lot of support in the rooms and engaging f2f with other alcoholics coupled with SR

Keep coming back

PhoenixJ

Perhaps also see a therapist- i find f2f is important. A sounding board.

Anna

Jacksdaughter, I know how hard it is to forgive yourself for mistakes you've made with your children. Being a mother is the hardest thing in the world to get right and I think so many of us feel inadequate.

Congratulations on reaching Day 4!

Delizadee

Congrats on day 4 jd! This is a great start and you will reap so many rewards for keeping on this path.
It will be a good thing for you to work through letting go of the pain and shame of the past. What's done is done and behind you now. Eyes forward and work on building a positive life for yourself. Your past need not define you, now you have the opportunity to repaint your self portrait. Practice self care and learn to love yourself. You are very much worth this.

Midwest1981

congrats on day 4!

I love going to the gym. It has really helped me stay sober.

SoberInStAlbans

Great job JD! You can continue to do this. Hang in there and take it for today only!

Dee74

Congrats on day 4 JacksDaughter

Day four is great buyt its still very early. I'd try, as much as you can to stay in the day - try not to obsess too much over the past or the future - today is really the only day we can make a difference in.

It would be a shame to waste that opportunity

D

courage2

Welcome jacksdaughter!

Please keep reading and posting here -- at first getting sober is very difficult, at least it was for me -- but good support and information helps a lot.