erin8

Day 23 here. Not so fantastic as yesterday but I am not drinking over it and for that I'm thankful. I went to a meeting this morning that hit me pretty hard and found myself calling my sponsor crying. Kind of a big deal because she had an important doctors appointment and I hate feeling like I'm bothering her over my trivial crap when she's dealing with MS. But I called her and she helped me even going through what she was today. I love this woman and I've just met her a few weeks ago. So I cried. I cried a lot when I was drinking but only when I was drunk. I hate crying. I cried so much as a teenager, I was the weird girl who cried in the bathrooms. Its embarrassing to me but it is a good thing according to my people. After I got home I started filling out applications again and had to pay some bills. I have very little money left and really need a job. I'm good for another month so I know I shouldn't be stressing over it. Live in today and all that but I'm still sick. I feel better now that I've had a nap but ... I guess this is just part of the process. Another day down. I think I'll go to bed early tonight.

Dee74

I don't think anyone likes dealing with the riller coaster of feelings
It will get better tho Erin - hang in there

D

least

23 days sober is very good, but still early in recovery. Give yourself more sober time to smooth out. It gets better!

PhoenixJ

ERIN- remember HALTS- most important rest, eat, hydrate- then see to the other stuff.

Soberwolf

Good job on day 23

rainyengland

I'm with you on this - I'll be rolling into day 23 tomorrow and totally fed up currently with my feelings - I'm up and down like a Meerkat with piles 😂

Probably reality to my problems which has been blotted out by alcohol now very real causing most of mine

Sasha4

You won't always feel like this.
I can promise you that from my own personal experience.

The tears are nothing to be ashamed at either.
Its all part of the process of dealing with life without drinking.

I too have been really, really hard up and had no money in the past 2 years.
I have been made redundant twice in last few years.
But something always came up in the end.
I also tried to live as frugally as I could.
I walked everywhere as I had no car.
I went without food sometimes so my daughter could eat.

I made use of free stuff I could do.
I went to the library and read a lot and I found that took my mind off my situation.
I began to start looking forward to bed so I could lock myself away from the world and be engrossed in my book.

I also agree going to bed sober, is a good way to end a rubbish day.

Wishing you the best xx