WeaverBird

I've got to Day 3 three times now in the last 13 days and relapsed twice and I'm worried I'm gonna do the same today.
Woke up a bit confused and foggy and then felt like this anxiety just pour into my body like water into a jug (more like vodka into a bottle).
Just want to cry like a baby right now.

Jillian2563

Hang in there. I know it's hard. I have 3 days as well. Just remember, after today, you'll have 4. It seems to take forever at first, but the the days will add up quickly as time passes. I would've had a year on May 24, but decided to "try" having "just one" again. While I feel upset about it, I realize it's not lost time. I did have 10 months so that counts for something. You can do it.

Bubblygirl

I don't know what time of day it is where you are Weev (I'm in Australia) and it's the witching hour where I am. I fail time and time again lately. I know you don't want to feel like this though. You are doing great getting so many days under your belt, like flexing a sober muscle. I understand about the third day 'feelings' also. I hope for the best outcome for you on day 3, giving advice from my position would seem silly though. Good luck Weev

PhoenixJ

Then cry. Then after that - shout! Then cry again. Then post here- then distract, go for a run- eat something, cook, clean, journal.

Good for you.

D122y

Getting out of the drinking routine was hard.

I come home from work...drink.

Now usually, come home...eat.

Then take a nap if I need it. Then work out. Dinner. Tv. Bed.

Routine.

That is what normies do. I copied my wife and son.

Thanks.

Soberwolf

No matter what don't drink & you will get through it make the most of the support here n the classes the specialist threads like the 24h thread

gratitude ?

WeaverBird

Hi. I'm in grey old UK. That fail feeling. Groan. Waking up knowing you've made yourself ill for the day or worse. It's great you got a year. I've never had that. I got two months once after I was arrested the second time. Withdrawal in a cell. Groan.
I guess I'm in that place where I'm terrified that I won't stop at a few and I'm a blackout drunk sometimes and I'm might die and never even know. But I'm also terrified of being sober.
You've still got that sober time. Got to do what it takes to stay off the drink today. I just did a body combat class. Now to walk the dog and then to a meeting. Scared to ask for a sponsor in case the answer's no. Might have to do another meeting tonight.....

Dee74

There is absolutely no reason why todays day 3 needs to be like previous day threes Weev1l.

You have support here and encouragement. Use it

Have you got a recovery plan at all?
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html

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WeaverBird

I just had the meeting from hell. To be fair the one last night was amazing. It has stressed me out. Everything you could imagine going wrong just did. I really want a drink. I called this lady and she agreed to be my temp sponsor so that's good but my hearts beating so hard right now. F--k.
Dee, thanks for your unfailing support. I'll sit down and try to work through that link when I get home. I don't have much of a plan to be fair. I didn't realise I would react so uncontrollably and violently. Difficult to manage. Trying that breathing exercise SWolf posted. Gonna walk the dog when I can drive. People are looking at me.

Soberwolf

Some great plan building links above Weev

AnvilheadII

try to keep your expectations LOW on what 72 or 96 HOURS of sobriety is going to be like or feel like. your body is still processing out the remaining alcohol, so it's like not quite being over the flu yet.

take it slow. remember to EAT. HYDRATE (with that water stuff, it's really quite good). cry all you want. sleep as much as you can. cuddle with the pup.

JUST.DON'T.DRINK.

no matter what. if you think you have come up with that ONE justifiable excuse to drink, come here and run it thru our BS'o'meter first.

doggonecarl

Don't create a self-fulfilling failure point in your head. Take drinking entirely off the table as an option. Accept that you will feel terrible for a few more days, maybe even weeks until your body and mind adjust to not having alcohol.

You know what's worse than 3 day threes?


A fourth day 1.

WeaverBird

Just been to fantastic meeting. Wow. The love there.
I'm sober on day 3. Sober on day 3. Wow. WOW.
I'm going to spread the love.
I love love love you guys
Weev

CreativeThinker

Great job Weev! Trust me, you are going to be so glad that you didn't slip when you wake up in the morning. Every time I move past an urge, it gets easier the next time.

Know that you CAN do this Weev!

Dee74

I'm really glad you're feeling better Weev

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WeaverBird

AnvilheadII you said if you think you have come up with that ONE justifiable excuse to drink, come here and run it thru our BS'o'meter first.

Well here goes. I don't suppose anyone's gonna give me the thumbs up on sleeping w/married man today.
I think I used it as an excuse to drink last two times I picked up and had to go back to day 1. I'm really fighting with myself this morning.

I've got to end it I think. oh no. another mess.

WeaverBird

Thank you so much for that fourth day 1 bit. It's so simple it's actually going around in my head this morning. I'm in a place where the want to stay sober is just greater than the need for a drink. Which is a good start.

Done4today

Good job Weev on not drinking. I think you already know the answer to your question about sleeping with a married man. Building self-esteem and confidence will help your sobriety journey. They say to get self esteem you need to esteemable acts. Good luck and many prayers