close call
 

Wow! That was close! I'm actually shocked I was about to go pick up a 6pk after 5months sober. I know what triggered me as well. As soon as I woke up today I had major anxiety over my court date later this week. This came and went ALL day! I'm not sure why since I don't even have to go that day and it will be over but, I guess it's just the thought of it. I was convinced a few beers would be ok(yeah right) and I was out of smokes. Also being off all day stuck in my head didn't help.. I would have and should have went to a meeting at all costs but,my daughter had my car(I still could have made it via ride service) and I've spent the day on here reading. Anyways, As I was about to head to the store for at least smokes she pulled in and I sent her instead. I'll be going to my morning meeting tomorrow. Thought I was going insane though.. :a043:

I'm glad you worked through that SR. Best wishes with the court date.

D

I still get crazy anxiety.

My kids teacher gets on my nerves.

I just want to scream at her....you are such a friggen mindless troll of a women...sacrificing our kids future for you loyalty to an enigma....the school.

Omg!

I thought about drinking today too, but then thought better.

Proudly sober forever.

Good for you DontRemember...I know that feeling of relief (after you move past the urge) only too well! You would have been kicking yourself in the a** tomorrow morning! Way to go!

Congrats on 5 months....that's awesome! Hang onto it!

I was giving my AV plenty of volume and power by overthinking about court. If anything I should be happy that it's coming up and will soon be behind me. As I watched the sun set tonight I had the thought of: "I'd rather get time in jail than drink and self destruct any longer". That's how much I do not want to drink. I'm not going to get any jail time of course as I've complied with my plea deal,ect. but, that thought was actually very true.