Four days sober, its been challenging
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Four days sober, its been challenging
Hey everyone.
So turns out my withdrawal symptoms weren't all withdrawal symptoms, in a stroke of bad luck I've managed to fall ill just as I quit drinking.
So sadly the vomiting has managed to join me for my first few days in the sober world.
Although I might not be feeling the positive effects on my body just yet, I do feel it in my mind.
Its a real mixed bad to be honest, seeing things clearly allows me to look at painful moments and my relationships with a clarity that isn't exactly fun or flattering. It's not that I didn't know the same things I know now, its more than there's nothing to dull my response to things.
You know how opiates dull the nervous system so when it kicks back in everything feels incredibly painful? I feel like alcohol does that with emotions, I dulled all my feelings for so long and now they're back with considerable interest.
But I knew this wasn't going to be painless, I'll get used to dealing with things in a sober way again, I'm just a little out of practise.
On the plus side this renewed focus on how I feel effects the positive as well as the negative, I enjoy things more and I can think more. I'm no longer sat watching tv reruns until dawn with an ever increasing stack of cans obstructing my view. Now I can feel my old interests like reading, cooking and music coming back. The world feels brighter now.
Also, I can't quite believe how much time I have. When you spend 80% of your spare time drinking, that blur makes life seem like its going very fast. I'm starting to think that drinking shortens my life even more than I thought.
If I had to describe being sober, it's more. More of everything. More time, more of the good and the bad feelings. More hobbies. More brainpower. Just more.
Anyway, there's a few reflections on my short time in the sober world. Four days may not seem like much, but its the longest I haven't drank since my early twenties.
Looking forward to seeing what sober life has to offer after I kick this bout of sickness.
So turns out my withdrawal symptoms weren't all withdrawal symptoms, in a stroke of bad luck I've managed to fall ill just as I quit drinking.
So sadly the vomiting has managed to join me for my first few days in the sober world.
Although I might not be feeling the positive effects on my body just yet, I do feel it in my mind.
Its a real mixed bad to be honest, seeing things clearly allows me to look at painful moments and my relationships with a clarity that isn't exactly fun or flattering. It's not that I didn't know the same things I know now, its more than there's nothing to dull my response to things.
You know how opiates dull the nervous system so when it kicks back in everything feels incredibly painful? I feel like alcohol does that with emotions, I dulled all my feelings for so long and now they're back with considerable interest.
But I knew this wasn't going to be painless, I'll get used to dealing with things in a sober way again, I'm just a little out of practise.
On the plus side this renewed focus on how I feel effects the positive as well as the negative, I enjoy things more and I can think more. I'm no longer sat watching tv reruns until dawn with an ever increasing stack of cans obstructing my view. Now I can feel my old interests like reading, cooking and music coming back. The world feels brighter now.
Also, I can't quite believe how much time I have. When you spend 80% of your spare time drinking, that blur makes life seem like its going very fast. I'm starting to think that drinking shortens my life even more than I thought.
If I had to describe being sober, it's more. More of everything. More time, more of the good and the bad feelings. More hobbies. More brainpower. Just more.
Anyway, there's a few reflections on my short time in the sober world. Four days may not seem like much, but its the longest I haven't drank since my early twenties.
Looking forward to seeing what sober life has to offer after I kick this bout of sickness.
On the plus side this renewed focus on how I feel effects the positive as well as the negative, I enjoy things more and I can think more. I'm no longer sat watching tv reruns until dawn with an ever increasing stack of cans obstructing my view. Now I can feel my old interests like reading, cooking and music coming back. The world feels brighter now.
Also, I can't quite believe how much time I have. When you spend 80% of your spare time drinking, that blur makes life seem like its going very fast. I'm starting to think that drinking shortens my life even more than I thought.
If I had to describe being sober, it's more. More of everything. More time, more of the good and the bad feelings. More hobbies. More brainpower. Just more.
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Also, I can't quite believe how much time I have. When you spend 80% of your spare time drinking, that blur makes life seem like its going very fast. I'm starting to think that drinking shortens my life even more than I thought.
If I had to describe being sober, it's more. More of everything. More time, more of the good and the bad feelings. More hobbies. More brainpower. Just more.
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This is spot on. The truth is, there is more time. No sleeping in everyday because of the headache/hangover. No more watching the clock, waiting for an "ok" or acceptable time to drink. Even if I stay up late sober, I still able to get up early the next day. More time to cook, clean, exercise, journal, etc.!
Amazing reply so true thanks x
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