Femaleboss1980

No problem 17 days but today my heart broke laying to rest my oldest friend at age 35 he took his life
I went to his wake decided on one pint (his drink) resulted in a bottle of wine on the way home ! Disgusting
He died a drug addict n im here making **** decisions

Gutted

Call me day1 again tomoz Goodnight

tomls

Welcome back??!!!!

Anna

I'm very sorry for the loss of your friend. And, I'm sorry you decided to drink. I think your friend would hope and wish that you stayed sober. I hope to see you here tomorrow.

saoutchik

So sorry to read about your friend Femaleboss, that is awful. Our addiction thrives on situations like these but you made it to 17 days so you know you can do it.

It would be the best tribute you could ever pay to your friend if you got sober.

Delizadee

I am so sorry
The choice you made to drink is done and gone.
It's important you take care of yourself during this difficult time, and don't drink. Do you have a support system available to you?
Be kind to yourself. Grief is not a process with a set end time. Don't punish yourself by dragging out the pain by pushing pause with drink.
Again many hugs and love your way

PhoenixJ

Mizzuno

The death of our loved ones is such a devastating thing. I am truly sorry for your loss.

Dee74

I'm sorry for the loss of your friend.
Addiction has no qualms about using grief to get its fix.

I know, to a certain extent, you've resisted the idea you might be alcoholic but maybe a recovery plan could help?

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html

Femaleboss1980

Good morning i went to sleep early hence waking up at this hour
Thank you
Im looking into AA although i did stop n go to bed i havent done that before ?!
I cannot believe seeing the state of half the people i went to infants/juniors with made me realise im not so bad i drive a brand new car own my house i should be grateful apart from drink !!!!

Thanks guys i slipped but im not over yet x

time2shineagain

I'm so sorry for your loss femaleboss. Today is a brand new day, all the best to you.

Femaleboss1980

Thank you xx

ExhaustedPigeon

I'm so sorry for your loss. Don't beat yourself up too bad, but try again today- in memory of your friend. You can do this.

SteveAlex

My deepest condolences.. Way to get back on the wagon, in my opinion its the best way to honor his memory.

Berrybean

So so sorry for your loss. And sorry that you slipped. Like you say, learn from the experience and use it as the prompt you needed to add more tools to your plan.

I've found AA to be a massive help. Why not look up the meetings available to you and give some of them a go (different meetings can feel quite different so it's worth trying a few to see which ones suit you best). Maybe reread Dee's thread about making a plan as well and see if there is anything else on there you could add in to your plan... http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...y-plans-1.html

Sincere condolences for your friend. And wishing you all the best for your sobriety and recovery. BB

Femaleboss1980

I will look into this today thank you xx