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Originally Posted by Weev1l 
What was that about a recovery plan. What's the first thing I should write. A lot of info on those links. Get pen and paper. Ha ha ha ha ha. Thats what Im standing up to do now. Finding that should take me the next hour and then it'll be time to leave. Why am i so thick
The first three sections of my plan are my goals, my identity, and my values. These might seem simple (duh, goal = sobriety), but if you really sit down and think about these and then take time to articulate them in writing, it is very helpful to determine who you are and who you want to be, or at least I thought so. After that, I moved on to more nuts and bolts things, like the various aspects of my recovery plan (affirmations, exercise, meetings, meditation, identification of my support network, awareness of PAWS, likely triggers to relapse, how to avoid relapse, etc.). My written plan is 7 pages, single spaced. It's detailed. It even includes a section on the most horrible things I've done while intoxicated, just so that I can remind myself of the importance of sobriety.
Hope this helps a bit. Again, I'm not advocating for a plan that is anything similar to mine, but I am a huge advocate for some sort of written recovery plan. Good luck. Almost time for that meeting!
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Thank you. Just to let you know i found the paper and just sat down to make a start when I realised I forgot the pen. Im like Rocky Balboa - hit in the head too many times. Its good you're out there.
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Originally Posted by Weev1l
Thank you. Just to let you know i found the paper and just sat down to make a start when I realised I forgot the pen. Im like Rocky Balboa - hit in the head too many times. Its good you're out there.
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I went to that meeting, unwillingly. It was about saying sorry and I thought well thats everyone I ever met then. Nice people, more numbers. Feel better and no craving. Off to bed for some insomnia. Sleep well yourself.
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Actually got some sleep. Felt like a major triumph. Bizarrely happy. Look like someone different in the mirror. Right I think let's get on. Where's the vodka? And now I'm stuck sitting on the edge of the bed because there isn't any. Panic.
I guess I'm a drinker don't do anything else. Beginning to see just how big a problem Ive got. Paralyzed.
I guess I'm a drinker don't do anything else. Beginning to see just how big a problem Ive got. Paralyzed.
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Originally Posted by Weev1l
Bizarrely happy. Look like someone different in the mirror
Get used to that look.
It gets better. You can have a whole new life if you want it, but you you've got to want it more than you want vodka.
You can't have both. It doesn't work like that for us alcoholics. :-)
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Went to coffee place stuck some dance music (addictive) on and made myself sit there watching people. It was nice. I never do that. Got to keep running around. On way home had to stop car. I didn't think it would hurt so much. How long will this go on for? Does alcohol suppress emotions? I don't want to feel anything.
Gotta be careful now. This is bottle-buying time. Im not craving so hopefully no more buying and pouring away. Costs a lot. Also bald patch on grass behind shed soon i expect.
Plan on another meeting tonight. Landlord has chosen friday for inspection after not being here for five yrs. Just when it looks as if two drunks lived here. Not feeling positive about that.
Gotta be careful now. This is bottle-buying time. Im not craving so hopefully no more buying and pouring away. Costs a lot. Also bald patch on grass behind shed soon i expect.
Plan on another meeting tonight. Landlord has chosen friday for inspection after not being here for five yrs. Just when it looks as if two drunks lived here. Not feeling positive about that.
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Just checking in to say i did go to another meeting.
I feel a bit like embarrassed like when you're at a party and you don't quite get whats going on, or you miss the joke. Im not the worlds best in company, I guess.
I feel a bit like embarrassed like when you're at a party and you don't quite get whats going on, or you miss the joke. Im not the worlds best in company, I guess.
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Originally Posted by Weev1l
twenty four hours sober
Now make it count and go another 24.
Keep posting here. Start a new thread asking for support. Drink water. Pray.
Go for a walk. If you start to get emotional then you'll know you're healing.
You CAN do this. :-)
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The alien has landed. Cried, laughed like a maniac, called someone a c word, got jealous, and who knows what the other twenty were. oh and fear. really don't like that one. Thank you for being out there in the ether. Have found another meeting for tomorrow. kill or cure. Weev
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