Hello!
 

Da Dah! I'm back :-)

Been stalking you all this week !

After 4 months clean 18 months ago with amazing support from SF I decided I was a adult and could handle a glass of wine 😂

Fast forward 18 months of hell and 2 bottles a day plus I'm now on day 7 clean !

One day at a time and not one more sip ! Lesson learnt big style and also keep using SF to keep me on rails rather than mr know it all after a few months

Very good to be back !!

Glad your back! Our AV can get to us sometimes. I'm glad your getting back to sobriety.

Welcome back, RainyEngland. I am at the four month stage, with recurring drinking dreams and occasional "I can have a glass" thinking. Do share your experience of the 18 month period as well. A lot of us may have something to learn from that. Keep posting!

Welcome back :)

Do you think you can dismiss those drinking again thoughts as fantasies now, if they come back?

D

I hope so Dee - last 18 months I went from bad to worse,Christmas Day was the trigger when it all went wrong - every morning after that I made the promise to quit but it just got out of hand again and a LOT worse

Catalyst this time was my sister - said I always looked tanned ..I knew why..I snapped a selfie of myself and could plainly see I am killing myself , look terrible

I think I understand now that this is it - I can't drink again ..ever ..I'm not going through it any more,for me most importantly but for my wife and children ..I'm not being that drunk husband and father

I buried my father this year and miss him terribly - He was a saint and died of old age,I can't put my kids through my self destruction and end up dead

I wanna be a saint like my dad !!

Welcome back! :) What are you going to do differently this time to make sure you don't drink?

Nice to meet you rainyengland

I'm so sorry for the loss of your father. My dad died recently too. Alcohol took him to an early grave and sometimes when I think about never being able to speak to him again, the pain feels so raw, it feels like I've been punched in the stomach.

When I'm having a bad day, I like to picture my dad in heaven; sober and happy and cheering me on. I can't think of any better way to honour his memory than not drinking today.

Wishing you lots of luck and strength

I'm sorry for your loss, RE but sounds like you have a great example and role model to follow :)

D

welcome. support to you

Welcome
Back. I too went out for 4-5 years. Its not fun out there. Glad you made it!

Welcome back!!

Rainyengland - I'm so sorry you lost your father. Very glad you decided to come back to us and give this another go. We know you can do it.

Sorry about your loss rainy, it's great that your back though.

Welcome back, rainyengland!

Thanks everyone 😊 Great to be back !

"After 4 months clean 18 months ago with amazing support from SF I decided I was a adult and could handle a glass of wine"

Sorry you had to learn this lesson (and hope you LEARNED IT!).

I had to learn it (and hope I LEARNED IT!).

That being said, I think it is incredibly important for people to hear stories like this.

Over and over and over.

What's true for others is true for all of us.

Once full-blown alcoholism has come into play there is NO going back to drinking normally.

Welcome back, rainyengland.

Very sorry to hear about the loss of your father.