Day 2
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Day 2
Getting ready to take a flight back home. Day 2 today. My husband and some other people wanted me to party on the last day, but I knew deep down that would be disastrous (hung over on flight home and going back home with no sobriety and having to work on Tuesday). So I took care of myself and basically stayed in my room the whole day while also going out periodically during the day. My husband was a bit disappointed that I didn't go out with him, but I know that I needed to get back a Day 1 and possibly save my sanity. So I guess I already see myself taking care of myself more since my last relapse. It felt so nice this morning to wake up sober and fresh and with some renewed optimism and hope. Plus, I am so excited to go home. Being on this cruise for 14 days with my husband who is really struggling was very difficult. Although I sedated myself with alcohol for 1/2 of the trip, passing/blacking out at the end of the night isn't fun, and there is always the risk of something bad happening. In other words, the risks of drinking for me are not worth the high or buzz, and that is why I feel so relieved to be on Day 2 because I knew that I was playing with fire. One day at a time.
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Congratulations on day 2. 
Im also on holiday and read your email whilst tucked away in my room to avoid the afternoon booze up. Its a great tactic to have in our armoury. Might pop to the gym or pool in a bit and feel just a little big smug that Im not poisoning myself like the others.
Im also on holiday and read your email whilst tucked away in my room to avoid the afternoon booze up. Its a great tactic to have in our armoury. Might pop to the gym or pool in a bit and feel just a little big smug that Im not poisoning myself like the others.
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So far, so good. Yes, drinking the day before flying would have been a disaster. Things get lost, schedules missed, etc. etc. 4 more hours until home. I just keep reminding myself that things will be okay if I just don't pick up, and so far the nightmare is almost over and I see a ray of sunshine ahead. I also get to see my puppy, who is my sober companion. I think I have some slight anxiety, but not sure if that is from withdrawal, my abusive husband or both.
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Finally made it home! So relieved. My husband got mean on the flight home after consuming a lot of alcohol, and so I got up and changed seats. I told him that for now on if he becomes abusive and mean making my life miserable, I'm not going to possibly drink over it but leave the situation. I told him that I am very close to leaving the relationship if this using and abuse continues. The good thing is that despite my week long vacation binge, I am not feeling any physical or mental obsession to drink.
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