😥😥not even 24hrs
😥😥not even 24hrs
Not even 24hrs clean. I spent at least 4hunred the last 3 days only on cocaine, beer, and cigarettes.also I've been having migraines the past couple of days which is new to me. I enjoy it while I'm doing it, but the aftermath is killing me. U feel like crap, everything hurts, especially my nose. And emotionally drained from crying and hating myself for once again doing this ****. I hate this part of my life.
The first step was the hardest for me. I hope that you find the strength to stop for 24 hours and then take it from there? I am only 18 days in and I feel like a completely different human being.
Less than three weeks ago I was spending 15 hours a day in bed only to get up and drink myself into oblivion again. The spells of being in bed were getting longer and the periods of self loathing were getting deeper.
Strength to you.
Tony
Less than three weeks ago I was spending 15 hours a day in bed only to get up and drink myself into oblivion again. The spells of being in bed were getting longer and the periods of self loathing were getting deeper.
Strength to you.
Tony
Are you able to draw an emotional and mindful line in the sand... After your done feeling guilty focus on moving forward without looking back? Easier said than done, I know all to well but at least think about it. It takes some of us (like me) more than 1 try at this. Yes for me too it feels good at first. I call that "The Journey To The Buzz". Then after that buzz has been attained we are just chasing the dragon. The juice isn't worth the squeeze for me anymore. I'm not magically cured, I still struggle but I'd like to take my own advice so by you posting your struggle it makes me think of a response to your situation and it also helps my own situation. So thank you.
Hating yourself does yourself absolutely no good. You pick yourself up and keep trying.
I relapsed over and over again cause I had no plan. A plan is important in recovery. Do you have one?
I relapsed over and over again cause I had no plan. A plan is important in recovery. Do you have one?
I hate this part of my life
if you mean the drugs and the booze, GOOD! if you mean the wretched "day after" feeling, good as well.
because you can REMOVE those things from your life PERMANENTLY.
and never EVER have to feel like this again. not worn out from the using. or lack of sleep from doing too much coke. or feeling sick from all the money gone. (don't forget this fact, you can't get it back.....). or hating ANY part of your life.
there IS a solution. and it's genius in it's simplicity. and there are several tried and true programs that can help you if you faithfully adhere to the suggestions.
if you mean the drugs and the booze, GOOD! if you mean the wretched "day after" feeling, good as well.
because you can REMOVE those things from your life PERMANENTLY.
and never EVER have to feel like this again. not worn out from the using. or lack of sleep from doing too much coke. or feeling sick from all the money gone. (don't forget this fact, you can't get it back.....). or hating ANY part of your life.
there IS a solution. and it's genius in it's simplicity. and there are several tried and true programs that can help you if you faithfully adhere to the suggestions.
Very good to see you back, 914born.
I've missed you.
Are you able to get safely to a doctor or an ER? As PhoenixJ mentioned, you may need medical supervision to safely detox.
So glad that you are back and wanting to try the sober life again.
We are here for you. Stay close. Lean on us.
I've missed you.
Are you able to get safely to a doctor or an ER? As PhoenixJ mentioned, you may need medical supervision to safely detox.
So glad that you are back and wanting to try the sober life again.
We are here for you. Stay close. Lean on us.
The first step was the hardest for me. I hope that you find the strength to stop for 24 hours and then take it from there? I am only 18 days in and I feel like a completely different human being.
Less than three weeks ago I was spending 15 hours a day in bed only to get up and drink myself into oblivion again. The spells of being in bed were getting longer and the periods of self loathing were getting deeper.
Strength to you.
Tony
Less than three weeks ago I was spending 15 hours a day in bed only to get up and drink myself into oblivion again. The spells of being in bed were getting longer and the periods of self loathing were getting deeper.
Strength to you.
Tony
I hate this part of my life
if you mean the drugs and the booze, GOOD! if you mean the wretched "day after" feeling, good as well.
because you can REMOVE those things from your life PERMANENTLY.
and never EVER have to feel like this again. not worn out from the using. or lack of sleep from doing too much coke. or feeling sick from all the money gone. (don't forget this fact, you can't get it back.....). or hating ANY part of your life.
there IS a solution. and it's genius in it's simplicity. and there are several tried and true programs that can help you if you faithfully adhere to the suggestions.
if you mean the drugs and the booze, GOOD! if you mean the wretched "day after" feeling, good as well.
because you can REMOVE those things from your life PERMANENTLY.
and never EVER have to feel like this again. not worn out from the using. or lack of sleep from doing too much coke. or feeling sick from all the money gone. (don't forget this fact, you can't get it back.....). or hating ANY part of your life.
there IS a solution. and it's genius in it's simplicity. and there are several tried and true programs that can help you if you faithfully adhere to the suggestions.
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