Accountability
 

So I drank on Sunday. It's really unfortunate and was a very bad idea. I thought i'd take off one day to drink with my husband who had just gotten back home. Tbh it was a very conscious decision; there was no AV, nothing. I just chose to do it. Needless to say it ended in another disappointment and led my husband getting angry over something I did while blacked out. Well, i'm back to day one. While I feel disappointed in myself, i'm not letting myself get sucked into depression (which is hanging heavy over my head). I feel like a terrible person and an even worse mother. I know I can quit and stay quit. I know I can do it. It just starts now.

You can do this!

Welcome back Lava. Perhaps you could consider adding something to or changing your plan to stay sober?

Well done for being honest and posting Lava. You are absolutely not a terrible person and I am glad you got straight back on the wagon.

Yes, you can do this!

What will you add to your recovery program to make it work?

I'm not sure right now, Anna. I just know it was a terrible idea for me to think I could take one day off to drink. What BS! I'm so angry with myself. But this has been a good lesson.

Thanks, Sao.

Yes, Anna points out the same regarding the plan. I need to do something about that and I will.