Cknopf82

Im already a bit down in the dumps because I've been sick a few days. I had a little tiff earlier with my husband. I was even more down. He left out a bottle of vodka and I had picked it up, opened it, and smelled it. I was so close to taking a drink. I put it down and immediately got my journal and started writing. After I was done I read every entry I have made so far. I realized how far I've come in just a week of writing and the work I have done is not worth throwing away over sadness. The sadness and craving has passed and I feel stronger than ever. I feel like I just saved myself.

Maudcat

Good going!

Dee74

I'm really glad you got through that.

Why does your husband leave booze around like that tho?

D

Anna

Yes, you did save yourself!

Maybe you could ask your husband to not leave alcohol sitting around? That would make things a bit easier for you.

CreativeThinker

Good question D!

*R*O*C*K*S*T*A*R* move Ck!

stargazer016

Well done Ck!

SoberLeigh

Nicely done, CK.

Maybe your husband could keep his alcohol out of sight.

Cknopf82

I have to say he's been pretty good lately, I honestly think this time he just forgot. He is an alcoholic too. I tried to get him to join me in sobriety but I realized I can't make him, he has to want it. I went through our garage to check the mail slot. He left the bottle on his work cabinet. I guess he didn't think much of it because I hardly ever go in the garage, too many spiders. Lol. The first time I tried sobriety he left things everywhere and we had a long talk about it. He since had removed it from the house. Although he isn't on the same path I am, I can tell he is trying harder than ever. Lately if he has had any alcohol, he doesn't do it around me and I can't remember the last time I actually saw him drunk or smelled booze on him. I'll take whatever victories I can get. I hope I can lead by good example and he will also want to be sober.

Cknopf82

Each day I spent sober has made me feel better in so many ways. In a way, I'm glad this happened today. I proved to myself that I can stare the problem in the face, recognize the why, and stay strong and work past it. Today I held alcohol in my hand and was emotional and I said NO! I feel like I just proved to myself that I can do this. I'm quite proud of how I handled it. I also want to thank everyone for the support. Also I learned a lot from talking to all of you and I was able to use that advice to help me today. Thanks again to everyone. The more I think about what had happened the more emotional I get in a positive way. I CAN beat this! It will always take work but it is so worth it.

PhoenixJ

Good one, support to you

Mattq2

Good for you CK. You showed great restraint.

Soberwolf

You did save yourself well done not drinking