Goodbye to Adderall
 

My name is Kristy. I'm a 33 year old married mom. This is probably about my 10th time attempting to quit adderall for good. I've allowed this crap to basically ruin me. Before adderall I tricked myself into believing I quit opiates. Yes, I did, but I did indeed just trade one for the other. I'm not well. I'm exhausted and my marriage is basically over, and I still love my husband. I have put my family through so much hell. I don't talk to any of my friends anymore and I have somehow grew a hatred toward all of those around me. I'm done with adderall. It's been over a week and today I took my son to lunch and went bowling. I felt okay. Physically I'm fine. I always have been. But mentally, I'm very down and I feel like a failure . My house is a mess, my husband can't stand me, I can't stand myself. It just sucks. Anyway, I'm hoping I can grow here and make some new friends while I get to my local meetings as well. Sorry I'm so miserable

Welcome Kristy! You will find a lot of support around here. Check out the other threads, read and post often. Nice to have you. :)

Welcome.

I was an amphetamine addict. It's tough when you first quit, as the drug has rewired your brain. But recovery is possible. Good luck, stay strong, and find support.

There used to be a saying but I don't know if it's used anymore: "You walk five miles into the forest, it's a five-mile walk back out of the forest."

Be gentle. Give yourself some time. I'm still giving myself time and I got myself way out of the forest many years ago!

Welcome Kristy - you'll find a ton of support & understanding here :)

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