Lollipops

Thank you so much. Had a nice walk in the park and fed ducks with my boy this afternoon. Felt refreshed and for once able to drive without being paranoid. Day 2 has been fine so far but i realise its early days. I will keep posting. And yes i also eat more sweet stuff when i dont drink wine! Xx

BabyBlues2

Hi, Lollipops! Great to have you! I, like you, am a young mother with young children - 33 years old with an infant and a toddler under 2. Much like you, my drinking has gotten worse than it had ever been after the birth of my second. I spent the better part of the 18 months prior to her birth sober (not a drop of alcohol during either pregnancy), with the exception of the short 8 week period in between the birth of my first and conceiving the second. However, during that period, my drinking wasn't out of hand like it is now. It's definitely time for me to get off this crazy train too. Day 1 (again) for me today.

Mizzuno

My thing has always been to run off the sweets in the morning. Im getting back to my running game and clean eating. Dont be too hard on yourself when it comes to foods. Alcohol has a lot of sugar and our bodies are adjusted to it. It will take time to get "normalized".... Whatever that is! Rooting for you.

Lollipops

Haha did you google it? I love it. Keeps me occupied and i enjoy trying new recipes x

Lollipops

How has your day been? Xx

Lollipops

Well its the finish of day 2 and again it is a lovely feeling coming to bed sober knowing i will be feeling fine tomorrow with no anxiety or paranoia, and able to drive safely!

Grymt

Good on you. Start looking at being prepared for changes in emotion. They can be quick and trip up the unaware. Have a plan?

Lollipops

Ok. I will. There have been times after 3 or 4 days i "convince" myself and think "just 1 bottle" and immediately the cycle again starts. Before i know it im back at the shop buying 2 more. I cannot and will not do this. Too many times 1 bottle turns into a dangerous trip to the shop for more.

Grymt

Ok, well there are a number of options. Try to keep things simple. For example look at something like HALT - what to do if you feel hungry, angry, lonely, or tired, tho I often make T thirsty, whatever, have something worked out for when you feel those things.

Possibly one of the most important thigns is what to do if you cannot identify what is bothering you or sending you off to get booze - come here or go to somewhere like AA first. Get it out to look at and talk to people. The deeper reasons will start to reveal themselves.

Lollipops

Honestly ive questioned myself so many times why do i do this? Unlike many others who end up with alcoholism my life has been pretty standard with not many traumas that would cause this. Im a happily married mother of a gorgeous 4 yr old boy who makes me smile and laugh everyday. I just honestly love the taste of white wine and cannot just have 1 glass or 1 bottle. Or recently even stop at 2. And if i cant get a hold of wine i will go to the garage and open my husbands vodka, drink some of that, replace it...

MrMcTell

Firstly welcome! SR has been a fantastic resource for me. Keep reading and posting; it really helps.

I have been reading lots of others' stories around this site and I don't think it is unusual for otherwise happy people with no obvious reason to drink destructively to develop a problem with alcohol. I think the only bad thing that has ever really happened to me is alcohol.

I don't think I will ever somehow discover a reason I drank. I think the simplest explanation was that I liked it a lot when I was young and then became addicted.Everything I was drinking to escape was caused by drinking in the first place.

Does it really matter though? I know it was damaging my health, finances, marriage, work. It was making me miserable and killing me, in fact. So it was right to quit.

Lollipops

Youre right. I think its sometimes confusing as its easy to associate alcoholism with people who have maybe had a bad start in life or had trauma which has then led them to self destruction. There has been hard times in my life. I struggled in my teens with the usual teen things and some depression and mum and dad divorcing. Then i worked in a pub which didnt really help as i made friends with the punters so drank after shift and wen to socialise on my days off. I also worked with end of life care for a long time in my last nurse post. I suppose there may have been a few triggers in my life or maybe not. Who knows but yes, why should i search for an answer i suppose when i should just concentrate on getting better.

Lollipops

Day 3 completed but i know it will get harder. Just need to keep coming on here and reading....

Scrainblaugh

Congratulations on day 4 Lollipops! I saw you post about day 4 in another thread. I've had a good day today but I'm already bored hanging out with my 2 year old and it isn't even 3pm here yet. I think we will go outside and play some more in a little bit and take a walk in the neighborhood. I have struggled with eating a lot of sweets today but that's ok with me Keep doing the next right thing Lolli!