How to not be obsessed over the bad choices I make when drunk
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How to not be obsessed over the bad choices I make when drunk
Every time I drink alcohol I completely change as a person and do stupid things I can never forgive myself for. It's come to the point where it's a regular thing for me when I drink, yet I still like to go out with my friends as I don't like missing out. If I keep acting the way I am I'm going to lose someone really important in my life, so I know I need to change myself. Tips on how to get over the past and how to change myself from this day forward would be nice,
Thankyou,
Rachel
Thankyou,
Rachel
Rachel, if you are regularly doing things when you drink that are by your own admission stupid and unforgivable, then you really need to sit down and have a long hard think about your relationship with alcohol.
You have asked how to change yourself from this day forward so that (presumably) you can stop doing those things and stop risking the person who is so important to you. The answer seems pretty obvious, right?
A wise person said: When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.
Alcohol is causing you to do those things, so you know the simplest way to prevent future issues is to stop drinking it.
Is alcohol more important to you than this person? Is "missing out" on going out with your friends and drinking more important to you than this person?
When you have stopped drinking and not doing these things anymore, you can focus on getting over the past. If you don't stop drinking, they will not be only in your past.
It's tough Rachel but I think you know what the answer is, right ...?
You have asked how to change yourself from this day forward so that (presumably) you can stop doing those things and stop risking the person who is so important to you. The answer seems pretty obvious, right?
A wise person said: When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.
Alcohol is causing you to do those things, so you know the simplest way to prevent future issues is to stop drinking it.
Is alcohol more important to you than this person? Is "missing out" on going out with your friends and drinking more important to you than this person?
When you have stopped drinking and not doing these things anymore, you can focus on getting over the past. If you don't stop drinking, they will not be only in your past.
It's tough Rachel but I think you know what the answer is, right ...?
In case you missed it - my response to your other post:
Hi and welcome Rachel ....
I'm afraid I was never able to find how to stop myself from turning into a jerk when I drank - I tried for a long time too - 20 years...
In the end I had to accept thats what alcohol did to me. Instant tool - just add alcohol.
I also had to accept that the trouble started with the first glass and not the last.
Once I had that first glass I had no control over where I might end up or what I might do.
The only way I stopped it was by stopping drinking - completely, no more alcohol, ever..
Is that something you'd consider?
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I'm afraid I was never able to find how to stop myself from turning into a jerk when I drank - I tried for a long time too - 20 years...
In the end I had to accept thats what alcohol did to me. Instant tool - just add alcohol.
I also had to accept that the trouble started with the first glass and not the last.
Once I had that first glass I had no control over where I might end up or what I might do.
The only way I stopped it was by stopping drinking - completely, no more alcohol, ever..
Is that something you'd consider?
D
Every time I drink alcohol I completely change as a person and do stupid things I can never forgive myself for. It's come to the point where it's a regular thing for me when I drink, yet I still like to go out with my friends as I don't like missing out. If I keep acting the way I am I'm going to lose someone really important in my life, so I know I need to change myself. Tips on how to get over the past and how to change myself from this day forward would be nice,
Thankyou,
Rachel
Thankyou,
Rachel
With sober time I found the "me" I am supposed to be. The me who doesn't do questionable things due to lack of inhibition and judgement. Alcohol made me into someone even I didn't like. Time away from the bottle has brought back my self-esteem and my peace. One day at a time, I get well again. The past is gone and I can't change it, but I can use it as a lesson.
Obsession and alcohol go hand in hand, too. I couldn't slow down my thinking or change it while I was drinking. I hope you'll stop, it will change everything for the better in your life.
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So very true. Alcohol makes you loose who you are. I became someone I don't recognize or even like very much. It will probably take forever to find the person that existed before alcohol took control. Definitely twisted my thinking and emotions.
I tried all kind of things to try to get rid of the unpleasant consequences of my drinking while still indulging myself in what I wanted. Thing is, I didn't want to stop drinking. I just wanted to find a way of getting away with it. Of becoming a normal drinker. It just meant a prolonged wrestle with my own will, dragging out the shame and self-hatred. Now I feel blessed that I recognised my own insanity (insanity: keeping on doing the same thing and expecting different results), and got desperate enough to do the 'unthinkable', and stop drinking.
I hope you will give yourself a chance at sobriety, recovery and serenity as well.
Wishing you all the best.
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I hope you will give yourself a chance at sobriety, recovery and serenity as well.
Wishing you all the best.
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Every time I drink alcohol I completely change as a person and do stupid things I can never forgive myself for. It's come to the point where it's a regular thing for me when I drink, yet I still like to go out with my friends as I don't like missing out. If I keep acting the way I am I'm going to lose someone really important in my life, so I know I need to change myself. Tips on how to get over the past and how to change myself from this day forward would be nice,
Thankyou,
Rachel
Thankyou,
Rachel
Not easy, but stopping the insanity was the best decision I ever made in countless ways, one being living with a clear conscience and one I can keep making clean quickly as needed by apologizing, etc to others.
Rachel, I became someone I hated when I drank, too. And, it's hard to let go of the guilt and shame of mistakes and messes you've made while drunk. However, all you can is to learn from the mistakes and move on. Dwelling too long on the past can lead you back to drinking. We do understand how hard this is.
Alcohol is mood-altering substance that, by its very nature, slows down the messages your nerves send to the rest of your body, and affects the part of the brain responsible for self-control.
You're asking how to control something that by its nature makes you incapable of controlling it.
The only was to stop doing things when drinking that you are ashamed of later is to not drink in the first place. I don't think that's what you want to hear, but that is the reality of your situation as you describe it.
It's also, in every respect, NOT the end of the world if you give up drinking. Waking up everyday without the shame of not knowing or being able to face what you did the night before? Having and maintaining meaningful and present relationships with other people? Those are the things that make life worth living--NOT the embarrassing and regretful actions of a "fun" night out.
You're asking how to control something that by its nature makes you incapable of controlling it.
The only was to stop doing things when drinking that you are ashamed of later is to not drink in the first place. I don't think that's what you want to hear, but that is the reality of your situation as you describe it.
It's also, in every respect, NOT the end of the world if you give up drinking. Waking up everyday without the shame of not knowing or being able to face what you did the night before? Having and maintaining meaningful and present relationships with other people? Those are the things that make life worth living--NOT the embarrassing and regretful actions of a "fun" night out.
there is exactly one solution to assure you never do anything "stupid" while drunk ever again.......quit drinking now. and stay quit. you can't fix the past, but you can change the path of your future.
think hard about what it IS you think you are missing out on. and measure that against your self-respect, and safety.
think hard about what it IS you think you are missing out on. and measure that against your self-respect, and safety.
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How to not be obsessed over the bad choices I make when drunk
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