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Need to change
Hi everyone,
I am 31 and have been binge drinking at least 1-2 times a week since I was 18. I can't remember having a week off drinking since I started. The blackouts are getting more intense and my behavior more erratic and disgraceful.. There is alcoholism on both sides of my family and assorted mental illnesses.
I am Day 4 of no drinking which was triggered by receiving a text message from one of my oldest friends calling my behavior disgusting and telling me to never contact her again. I have no memory of what happened and have been having panic attacks when I think of all the possibilities.. I really want to make sobriety work, I have ordered the big book and am awaiting its arrival. I'm really happy to have found this site, it has already been helpful in showing me that I'm not alone...
I can't have one drink without getting the taste for more and more.....
The addiction demon in my head keeps trying to convince m otherwise, but I'm able to challenge that at the moment. I really love the concept of one day at a time...
I am 31 and have been binge drinking at least 1-2 times a week since I was 18. I can't remember having a week off drinking since I started. The blackouts are getting more intense and my behavior more erratic and disgraceful.. There is alcoholism on both sides of my family and assorted mental illnesses.
I am Day 4 of no drinking which was triggered by receiving a text message from one of my oldest friends calling my behavior disgusting and telling me to never contact her again. I have no memory of what happened and have been having panic attacks when I think of all the possibilities.. I really want to make sobriety work, I have ordered the big book and am awaiting its arrival. I'm really happy to have found this site, it has already been helpful in showing me that I'm not alone...
I can't have one drink without getting the taste for more and more.....
The addiction demon in my head keeps trying to convince m otherwise, but I'm able to challenge that at the moment. I really love the concept of one day at a time...
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Welcome to you, Ladywood. This is a friendly & encouraging place to be. I was able to stop drinking after 30 yrs.
When I was 31 I knew, like you do, that I didn't drink the way other people did. One or two drinks was never enough. Once the first drink hit me, I was headed to danger and an unpredictable outcome. I consider myself fortunate to still be here. I'm so glad you're admitting what it's doing to your life. You'll be avoiding so much pain. Good to have you with us.
When I was 31 I knew, like you do, that I didn't drink the way other people did. One or two drinks was never enough. Once the first drink hit me, I was headed to danger and an unpredictable outcome. I consider myself fortunate to still be here. I'm so glad you're admitting what it's doing to your life. You'll be avoiding so much pain. Good to have you with us.
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Welcome, and You are making a good choice to quit, I am 4-5 days too, I am starting to feel better and you will to, and as for your friend and the text message, a true friend will forgive you, might need a little time but all will work out if you just have faith in yourself.
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I read the big book front to back. It really helped me to understand alcoholism and that I am not abnormal! I am 30 and my black outs were increasing in intensity. My last night of drinking Is a black hole. I don't have to have those anymore. I hope you don't either. Hang strong and we are here!
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Originally Posted by PhoenixJ 
LW- good for you on sharing. Strength in unity. You have courage. If you stop drinking- the damage stops. Have you thought of going to a meeting? Empathy and support. PJ
KEEP POSTING.
KEEP POSTING.
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Originally Posted by Hevyn
Welcome to you, Ladywood. This is a friendly & encouraging place to be. I was able to stop drinking after 30 yrs.
When I was 31 I knew, like you do, that I didn't drink the way other people did. One or two drinks was never enough. Once the first drink hit me, I was headed to danger and an unpredictable outcome. I consider myself fortunate to still be here. I'm so glad you're admitting what it's doing to your life. You'll be avoiding so much pain. Good to have you with us.
When I was 31 I knew, like you do, that I didn't drink the way other people did. One or two drinks was never enough. Once the first drink hit me, I was headed to danger and an unpredictable outcome. I consider myself fortunate to still be here. I'm so glad you're admitting what it's doing to your life. You'll be avoiding so much pain. Good to have you with us.
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Originally Posted by Linz805
I read the big book front to back. It really helped me to understand alcoholism and that I am not abnormal! I am 30 and my black outs were increasing in intensity. My last night of drinking Is a black hole. I don't have to have those anymore. I hope you don't either. Hang strong and we are here!
The blackouts are terrifying! I turn into a wild woman and have no care for anyone or Anything other than myself and another drink.. I become such a different person to who I really am. At the start I thought drunk me was more fun and outgoing, but now I turn into a self centered, provocative *******!
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Originally Posted by IN2Q
Welcome, and You are making a good choice to quit, I am 4-5 days too, I am starting to feel better and you will to, and as for your friend and the text message, a true friend will forgive you, might need a little time but all will work out if you just have faith in yourself.
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Originally Posted by Ladywood11
I can't wait for it to arrive!
The blackouts are terrifying! I turn into a wild woman and have no care for anyone or Anything other than myself and another drink.. I become such a different person to who I really am. At the start I thought drunk me was more fun and outgoing, but now I turn into a self centered, provocative *******!
The blackouts are terrifying! I turn into a wild woman and have no care for anyone or Anything other than myself and another drink.. I become such a different person to who I really am. At the start I thought drunk me was more fun and outgoing, but now I turn into a self centered, provocative *******!
but now I have a few people I can call and I am sure great relationships will prosper. Let the real you shine! Alcohol always brought out the worst in me!
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