Gilmer

Good to see you, Nons!

Venecia

Thanks, Sao, for a great opener. Lots to chew on there. I particularly found your observation that addiction is akin to "overseer of our own slavery" insightful. How true.

Hope this gets all off to a solid, sober start. Julia, thinking of you.

Take care, all.

BixBees505

Morning, I am in for the weekend.

Upstairs

No escaping reality for me this weekend, I'm stuck with the new sober reality and it's not that terrible these days. Just normal like most people! Lots of household chores I have put off during my busy work week. I dunno who these weekend warriors are that have the time to good off all weekend.

biminiblue

Mmm. This is a great turn of phrase.

Too many words? Not possible. Great opening post. I agree with Gilmer though, there has never been a better time to be alive. If I stay away from TV news, talk shows, editorials, life is pretty darn good. I don't know why things have become so adversarial, but it is easy to ignore most of it.

Good to see Weasel.

I've just spent an uncomfortable hour on the phone and I'm now trying to remember to breathe.

Here's (it's long, but the first 10 minutes is pretty indicative of the rest, so just watch a couple minutes and you'll get the gist of it) eagle baby learning and yearning to soar on Tuesday. Lots of flapping around! Strengthen those wings. They grow up so fast.
Fly away, little one. Any day now.

graciepearl

Great opener and dare I say sobering thoughts for this ever changing world. I have given up social media for Lent (except SR of course) and found my mood to be much improved !

MidnightBlue

Hi, weekenders.

Thank you for the opening, Sao.

Reality - that is something that hurts me now. I am wrestling with bouts of depression and can't feel anything inside that can I use as a drive to press forward. I just want to stay in bed all day long. It takes a lot just to take care of simple things, let alone to decide what bathtub to buy for a new apartment, how to spread my thin budget to take care of all the things that should be taken care of, and so on and so far.

The job has been taking its toll for certain. Formalities about new job take more thane expected, so not sure when I can change jobs.

The good thing is that I am on 10 days vacations now and can catch my breath and take a break from work.

Missed you all)

BrendaChenowyth

LoL

BrendaChenowyth

All I do is waste time escaping reality.. at best, I merely disappoint others, at worst, allow someone to die when I could have prevented it.. That's what I see when I look back on my adult life.. My good days are the days where the only pain I cause is to myself.. All I do is waste this life, day after day..

MsCooterBrown

I understand this. I chalk it up to depression for myself. I am also living on the thought that the more sober days that go by the better I will feel. It is an on going fight that I alone are in. I read a lot here. I read a lot of addiction books. We are in it together with an individual approach to lashing out at this horrible addiction disease.

BrendaChenowyth

One thing I have learned is that the number of days sober you have... doesn't actually mean anything. Except for letting another alcoholic know they have one up on you.

Nonsensical

Sober day tallies mean different things to different people. I'm less interested in the quantity of my sober days and more interested in their quality.

I'm glad at least one person got my Walking Dead humor.

Tetra

I've had a very difficult day at work.
I happened to mention to my mom on the phone that I am tired and I'm looking forward to my break in Dublin.
There was a silence before she said "who is going with you? I'll go with you".
Very quickly I told her "no you won't".
The answer I got was "I don't like the thought of you wandering around Dublin on your own".
I know some parts of Dublin are dangerous but I don’t go to those places. You would never guess that I am coming up to 40 years old would you?

I know I shouldn't say this because one thing I have learned is that most people love their mothers. The unfortunate thing is that we do not all come from happy Hallmark families.

Anyway I really really wish she would bog off and let me live my own life.

And I'm sorry if that sounds awful. But it's true.

BrendaChenowyth

Without context, that doesn't sound like a bad thing.. She's worried about you.

BixBees505

Yeah but with context it doesn't feel sweet. Tetra, remind yourself you've already won the war. These occasional skirmishes sound more about your moms anxiety and her habit of controlling.

BixBees505

I'm pretty attached to my count right now. For me it feels the only objective yardstick, and there is sense of accomplishment as the days stack up. Not saying quality isn't more important...but it takes a little quantity to be in a position to think of quality.

I've sure never felt anyone was looking down on my sober count compared to their own.

BrendaChenowyth

My stomach hurts so bad..

saoutchik

Great to see you on the thread Nons. I don't envy your task but it sounds like your new business is getting lots of clients which is awesome. Way to go.

BixBees505

^^^^why, BC? Sorry if I missed a post. What's wrong with your stomach?

BrendaChenowyth

I wish I had more sympathy for mothers who do a **** poor job of it and then demand respect.