Struggling
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Struggling
I need help to quit drinking. I feel like it should just be simple, just don't drink. No one is making me do it. What I'm doing isn't working and I need to re-evaluate my game plan. So, I've called a recovery place I've looked into and I think will be a good fit. I know I'm an alcoholic and I'm struggling. I'm not working hard enough and I'm not choosing sobriety and recovery, even though I say I want it, and I do.
The recovery house is checking my insurance and then will call me back and we will talk next steps then. I've been drinking the past few days so I am also looking into a medically supervised detox along with professional help and in person support. I'm looking at starting tomorrow or Saturday. I'm at work and trying to hold myself together but I'm quietly crying as I type this, I hope no one stops by my desk. I'm the only one working right now so I hope I qualify for STD if I need to be out of work for more than a week.
The recovery house is checking my insurance and then will call me back and we will talk next steps then. I've been drinking the past few days so I am also looking into a medically supervised detox along with professional help and in person support. I'm looking at starting tomorrow or Saturday. I'm at work and trying to hold myself together but I'm quietly crying as I type this, I hope no one stops by my desk. I'm the only one working right now so I hope I qualify for STD if I need to be out of work for more than a week.
I need help to quit drinking. I feel like it should just be simple,
What I'm doing isn't working and I need to re-evaluate my game plan. So, I've called a recovery place. I know I'm an alcoholic and I'm struggling. I'm not working hard enough and I'm not choosing sobriety and recovery, even though I say I want it, and I do.
I've been drinking the past few days so I am also looking into a medically supervised detox along with professional help and in person support. I'm looking at starting tomorrow or Saturday. I'm at work and trying to hold myself together but I'm quietly crying as I type this, I hope no one stops by my desk.
What I'm doing isn't working and I need to re-evaluate my game plan. So, I've called a recovery place. I know I'm an alcoholic and I'm struggling. I'm not working hard enough and I'm not choosing sobriety and recovery, even though I say I want it, and I do.
I've been drinking the past few days so I am also looking into a medically supervised detox along with professional help and in person support. I'm looking at starting tomorrow or Saturday. I'm at work and trying to hold myself together but I'm quietly crying as I type this, I hope no one stops by my desk.
Wow. I'm sending you a hug.
Quitting drinking is the same thing as severing a relationship and more because the body and brain crave it. There's nothing simple about an alcoholic quitting drinking. Our minds and hearts want us to stop, but our brains don't want to let go.
It took me over a decade to realize that if I didn't want to die from alcoholism, I had to stop drinking - permanently. I have a choice every day to drink - but I won't and don't because I want to feel good, be healthy, and live.
You wrote "I'm not working hard enough and I'm not choosing sobriety and recovery, even though I say I want it, and I do. "
What do you think asking for help is and putting yourself in treatment is if it's not working diligently toward sobriety?
Treatment is an interesting space - I've been to some. You'll encounter lots of characters in there. Go with it - take a notebook and do some journaling. You might be glad you did when all is said and done.
I know how scary it feels to do what you're about to do. I hope you feel proud too, because it requires a lot courage to put yourself into treatment.
People who read your post are cheering for you. I'm certain of it. I am!
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Wow. I'm sending you a hug.
Quitting drinking is the same thing as severing a relationship and more because the body and brain crave it. There's nothing simple about an alcoholic quitting drinking. Our minds and hearts want us to stop, but our brains don't want to let go.
It took me over a decade to realize that if I didn't want to die from alcoholism, I had to stop drinking - permanently. I have a choice every day to drink - but I won't and don't because I want to feel good, be healthy, and live.
You wrote "I'm not working hard enough and I'm not choosing sobriety and recovery, even though I say I want it, and I do. "
What do you think asking for help is and putting yourself in treatment is if it's not working diligently toward sobriety?
Treatment is an interesting space - I've been to some. You'll encounter lots of characters in there. Go with it - take a notebook and do some journaling. You might be glad you did when all is said and done.
I know how scary it feels to do what you're about to do. I hope you feel proud too, because it requires a lot courage to put yourself into treatment.
People who read your post are cheering for you. I'm certain of it. I am!
I feel lost right now and I don't want to make excuses for myself, which is what I feel like I'm doing. I surrender. I need help and I can't continue do this alone as I have been.
If stopping drinking was simple there would be no need for forums such as this or detox/rehab or AA. Do not beat yourself down.
We all ARE cheering you on, we care and we want to see you well.
You've taken action and that is the first step...go where it leads you. Make sobriety your top priority for now.
Hugs and prayers to you Rainbow xx
We all ARE cheering you on, we care and we want to see you well.
You've taken action and that is the first step...go where it leads you. Make sobriety your top priority for now.
Hugs and prayers to you Rainbow xx
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I've notified my supervisor of my request for leave starting on Monday. I plan to work tomorrow and do a knowledge / case transfer and report to rehab by 5:30pm local time tomorrow, my husband will drive me to rehab. My family is on board. I need this help. I'm not ok, but I'm ok, does that make sense?
I'm really pleased that you are reaching out taking this step RainbowBird. Stopping drinking is simple enough in theory but it is never easy so don't be to hard on yourself. You are being very proactive and that is good.
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