Day 14
 

Hey there,
Just thought i'd check in. Earlier in the month i went out on a 7 day binge. I finally got to a point where i said enough is enough. I suppose when you have AA in your belly it's hard to stay out for long (with me anyways). I could still end up in jail, in an institution or dead. After trying to detox at home (not recommended) i drove myself to the hospital and then ended up in detox. The thought of going to detox alone should keep me sober. I love the outdoors and i always feel like a caged animal when i'm there.
Once out the next 9 days were rough with hardly any sleep, anxiety and depression. Day 10 was better and have started sleeping.
I recently had a birthday which i stayed sober through even with a snowstorm which is a major trigger. I also talked with my mother/step-father for the first time in quite awhile. It was awkward. I know she brought me into this world but she is a selfish, toxic and manipulative person that honestly i'd rather keep my distance from. I had planned to talk to them today..but surprise surprise..i was blown off. She's in my 4th step and i know i have some amends to make with her. I also have to forgive her for some things that she did to my brother who passed away. Anyway i hope everyone has a great Sunday!

Thanks

Snow is a trigger for me too, comtn. Congrats on two weeks!

Congrats! Feel free to come join the class of Feb 2017 and say hi. We would love to welcome you.

I'm glad you're back and have 2 weeks comtnman - and happy belated birthday - looks like not having to interact with your mom was a good present :)

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Welcome back Comtnman!! Day 14 is fantastic!! :scoregood

Thanks everyone! I feel like i'm guarding my sobriety like the holy grail. I got a call from an old friend who is dealing with depression and doesn't appear to want to help himself. He's been leaning on me and my sobriety has been suffering. I very sternly told him last Monday that i think he should work on his problems and i should work on mine. In other words i need some space. Well guess who called today. Pisses me off some people can be so selfish. Needless to say i don't like blowing off phone calls but i didn't answer and i didn't call him back. I hope he gets help for himself. Strangely enough i haven't had cravings through that whole ordeal today. Sober today Day 15!

Good for you comtnman,
You statement about guarding your sobriety made me smile. I do the same. My sobriety is my prized possession. Without sobriety I'm going to loose all my other possessions anyway!😊