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Old 02-22-2017, 03:23 PM   #1 (permalink)
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Hello All. I posted a few embarrassing stuff here back over 4 years ago. Let's say I barely had a night since then of not being drunk.

However, I'm happy to say this is my 9th day in a row sober. I did it cold turkey. It was hell, but I kept saying over and over I don't want to die. Last night was probably the easiest and today I feel pretty damn good. I'm sleeping better. I literally can fall asleep within a half hour and go into a deep sleep. I forgot what real sleep is. I feel human now.

I'm about to be 27 in May and my health is (in my mind) not in the best shape. I've had a nagging pain in my right side for over 2 years. I got use to it since I never really felt it unless I was sober. I'm thinking it's either gallbladder/pancreas issues. I have neuropathy, but it is getting better being sober. My anxiety is fading. I will be seeing a doctor pretty soon.

This is probably my final and last chance. I think if I go back, I'll be dead in a couple of years. I have no medical evidence to back that up, but that's my feeling. Baby steps. The biggest was quitting, so I'm there. I'm taking vitamins and eating better. The next step is exercise. I didn't' want to push my body too hard.

Motivation is starting to come back and not as depressed as before. There are so many things you don't realize you were missing until you quit. It really is amazing especially with running a business. The booze was making the stress management impossible.

Hopefully the doctor's results in the next couple of weeks are positive in the light that the damage done is reversible. I'm in for the long haul.
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Welcome back, Cam and congratulations on Day 9! Yay!

I'm glad you're starting to feel better and it's good that you are planning to see your doctor.
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Old 02-22-2017, 03:26 PM   #3 (permalink)
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Welcome, Cam...all the best. This is a good place to be.
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Welcome Cam!!! Congrats on the 9 days. I feel like the official welcoming committee, but come join us in the Class of February Support Thread.
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Old 02-22-2017, 04:31 PM   #5 (permalink)
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Glad you are making your way back into the world, don't push yourself too hard those first few weeks are rough. You may be totally fine do dont fear the doctor too much. I had significant pain around my liver and kidneys and had warning markers in blood tests I was sure I had done myself serious damage 2 months sober and I'm fine and feeling better than I have in years; hopefully you will be too.

The best thing for me is my relationships with friends and family, booze was really making me feel dead inside and it's nice to be back among the living.

Good luck keep going, watch out for those bad withdrawals and have ways to deal with them, even if it is just posting here. Better times are ahead.
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Old 02-22-2017, 04:35 PM   #6 (permalink)
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I think if I go back, I'll be dead in a couple of years.
wow thats one helluva motivator

thankfully there is a solution ...

by following some simple direction

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Hi Cam! 9 days sober is a fabulous. You sound ready to stay with it this time. We know you can. Welcome back.
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Welcome. Good one. Keep posting.
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Welcome back Cam

So this time's for real...what's your plan?

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