Well... Here I am again.
 

Not surprising I will admit. Since the last time I was here, I was able to stop for 3 months or so, here and there.....and just like I have read a thousand times on here, I CAN NOT be a "normie". I would go to places, have a glass of wine, or a beer and be perfectly ok. We all know too well that that scenario eventually played out. On day three of the last 3 week bender of daily all-day drinking. So here I am, and it's nice to see some of the familiar faces. I am not feeling terrible from withdrawals...was able to get some meds, but just disappointed that I let myself get to this point again. :(

Hi Badger, I'm glad you're back and working on your recovery. It is so important to accept that you can never drink again, because this disease is very diabolical and relentless. I hope you continue posting.

If you really are tired of the whole thing, you just have to never pick up alcohol again. Just do not drink at all. I know it seems overwhelming, but as the days go by you get stronger and stronger and the habit goes away. Good luck.

Well if it makes you feel any better, by selflessly coming here and sharing your pain, you have helped others with the reminder of how insidious and soul crushing this disease can be. Thank you Badger! You can do this. We are rooting for you.

This was me yesterday Badger. You're not alone. Can you join the February thread and the weekender thread? We can do this together.

Hi BHappy... I'm sorry you fell back as well. I have joined the February Class. And will also join and be part of the Weekenders. I really thought I had this under control. But as it appears, I definitely was/am not.

Hi Badger, I've had those relapses too and you're right...you feel like crap for letting it happen, but you have to just pick yourself up again. Also post here like you did; no judgment from this group just support!

Hang in there! :)

Welcome back Badger!! :)

glad you are here! welcome back!