Dave the Gerbil Weekender 10 - 12 Feb
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Originally Posted by Venecia 
Bix, I've learned that with time, there are folks who don't post much, or at all. It's natural to wonder -- and fear. I can assure you that in many instances, people remain grounded in their sobriety. I stay in touch with a few folks, including SR classmates, whose presence here is not what it once was, but they're doing really well.
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Morning.
Splendid to hear from you MesaMan!
Pete and anyone else who is sober for the first time this weekend, this should be lot better than your usual Monday morning wakeup.
Weekenders does run throughout the week and will be here tomorrow for a certain Saint's Day which can often be a source of turmoil and disappointment.
Splendid to hear from you MesaMan!
Pete and anyone else who is sober for the first time this weekend, this should be lot better than your usual Monday morning wakeup.
Weekenders does run throughout the week and will be here tomorrow for a certain Saint's Day which can often be a source of turmoil and disappointment.
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Great to hear from you, Mesa!
I am at work, feeling ok so probably won't pull it out with a sick leave.
We'll see.
Have a good day, everyone.
I am at work, feeling ok so probably won't pull it out with a sick leave.
We'll see.
Have a good day, everyone.
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My mother has accused me of drinking even if I haven't been. She said my voice sounded 'funny' on the phone. I was at work all day and I have a bit of a cold and a cough.
I have to say that I am extremely upset right now.
I have to say that I am extremely upset right now.
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People at work were commenting on my coughing and suggested that I get one of the doctors to look me over but I declined.
Then I spoke to my mum and she accused me of that because my "voice sounds funny".
I swear on my Grandmother's grave that I have not touched alcohol and I'm so upset for some reason.
I suppose I get so upset because it reminds me of my past. Anyway I was never able to keep up with her mood swings. Yesterday when I saw her she was telling me "I'm so proud of you". Today she said "are you drinking? You are going to kill your father".
She actually asked 'did you go to work today?'
Yes my mother can be cruel and I'm just not feeling any warmth towards her.
Truthfully I can hardly see the phone through my tears. I'm not quite sure why the false allegations have upset me so much.
Then I spoke to my mum and she accused me of that because my "voice sounds funny".
I swear on my Grandmother's grave that I have not touched alcohol and I'm so upset for some reason.
I suppose I get so upset because it reminds me of my past. Anyway I was never able to keep up with her mood swings. Yesterday when I saw her she was telling me "I'm so proud of you". Today she said "are you drinking? You are going to kill your father".
She actually asked 'did you go to work today?'
Yes my mother can be cruel and I'm just not feeling any warmth towards her.
Truthfully I can hardly see the phone through my tears. I'm not quite sure why the false allegations have upset me so much.
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Yeah, and my mom supposedly checks my room while I'm not home. I don't talk to her about whether I'm drinking or not because it doesn't matter what I say. She can believe I'm sober even if I'm not, and she can believe I'm drinking even if I'm sober. Whatever!
I have been getting rather irritated with myself lately. I was in a great mood this morning, very little anxiety, odd on a hospital day, but I'll take it! Then health department inspectors decided all the students needed to leave, giving me an unexpected afternoon off. The first thing I wanted to do was go get a bottle of red wine. What the actual ****?!
Work keeps asking me to come in and cover and I don't want to. Not that I have much motivation to do anything else. I have some homework because of the early dismissal.. maybe I'll do it later.
I have been getting rather irritated with myself lately. I was in a great mood this morning, very little anxiety, odd on a hospital day, but I'll take it! Then health department inspectors decided all the students needed to leave, giving me an unexpected afternoon off. The first thing I wanted to do was go get a bottle of red wine. What the actual ****?!
Work keeps asking me to come in and cover and I don't want to. Not that I have much motivation to do anything else. I have some homework because of the early dismissal.. maybe I'll do it later.
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Well what upset me the most is that she rang me a second and a third time to repeat her allegations.
Then other times she asks me why myself, my brother and sister never ever call her. If I need a sympathetic parental ear I go to my dad.
I really don't like saying this but right now at this moment in time, I hate her
There I said it. And I'm a bad person.
Then other times she asks me why myself, my brother and sister never ever call her. If I need a sympathetic parental ear I go to my dad.
I really don't like saying this but right now at this moment in time, I hate her
There I said it. And I'm a bad person.
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An hour before my Monday meeting. Heart is pounding when I think of dialing the line. But I've written out word for word how I'll start off the meeting. No small talk. Keeping it crisp and professional. They can have their social hour after my presentation this time.
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Originally Posted by BrendaChenowyth
And we're not bad people for resenting people who treats us badly.
Tetra you are living your own life, your own way, and sober. You've already won this battle. Your mom is anxious and anxiety makes her feel angry. Just limit your exposure to her. After pleasantly assuring her that you are fine, you don't have to answer her calls or pick up her messages. Just let her know you are generously giving her a couple of days to get it together before you talk with her again.
Gotta go. Later.
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We don't want to hold on to it forever, but we also want to allow ourselves to have appropriate feelings about **** and still feel okay about ourselves. But then we have to hand it away, I'm not saying hold on to it.
I'm praying your meeting goes very well..
Random whines..
My room is a mess, I need to clean.. I just cleaned Friday! It's a mess again!
Lack of much of an appetite lately I tend to default to my favorite thing to snack on.. that would be cheese.. My gut loves this.. not..
I'm praying your meeting goes very well..
Random whines..
My room is a mess, I need to clean.. I just cleaned Friday! It's a mess again!
Lack of much of an appetite lately I tend to default to my favorite thing to snack on.. that would be cheese.. My gut loves this.. not..
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