30 days! whoooppp!
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30 days! whoooppp!
I didn't want to post until I got a solid 30 days under my belt. I know it is nothing to be ashamed of to you guys, BUT to myself that is another story. Each time I came back here posting insisting I was DONE, yet again, I ended back up in the grips only a few days or weeks later. I could not get my crap together to save my life! Literally!
I have not had 30 days in a long time! I feel like a whole different person for sure, of course. I like it. The best part is I have freedom again in every aspect.
Just wanted to say hi. You guys never left my mind. I felt like the outsider wanting to hang out along the cool crowd but being too ashamed to jump in for way too long. Anyway, I am back and going to do everything in my power to stay back!
I promised myself the first thirty days I would go easy on myself. I am still doing that but incorporating more self accountability tools; such as meetings and making a point to come here.
Some pretty crazy physical things happened towards the end of the last time. My mind, spiritual, mental states have already gone to poop years ago when alcohol was involved. Aside from the jitters and withdrawals my body is catching up in more critical ways, I suppose. It can only take so much. Pretty scary that I allowed one thing to tear me up that way. Above it all, one thing I hate! Anyway, all that is the past and from here on out it's going to continue onward and upward. I will put all of my efforts into protecting my sobriety because without it I literally have NOTHING!
Missed my friends xoxoxo
I have not had 30 days in a long time! I feel like a whole different person for sure, of course. I like it. The best part is I have freedom again in every aspect.
Just wanted to say hi. You guys never left my mind. I felt like the outsider wanting to hang out along the cool crowd but being too ashamed to jump in for way too long. Anyway, I am back and going to do everything in my power to stay back!
I promised myself the first thirty days I would go easy on myself. I am still doing that but incorporating more self accountability tools; such as meetings and making a point to come here.
Some pretty crazy physical things happened towards the end of the last time. My mind, spiritual, mental states have already gone to poop years ago when alcohol was involved. Aside from the jitters and withdrawals my body is catching up in more critical ways, I suppose. It can only take so much. Pretty scary that I allowed one thing to tear me up that way. Above it all, one thing I hate! Anyway, all that is the past and from here on out it's going to continue onward and upward. I will put all of my efforts into protecting my sobriety because without it I literally have NOTHING!
Missed my friends xoxoxo
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Originally Posted by growpath 
I promised myself the first thirty days I would go easy on myself. I am still doing that but incorporating more self accountability tools; such as meetings and making a point to come here.
Incorporating more accountability tools? -- excellent.
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