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Beautiful, AASharon.
NewHope - When I went to (outpatient) treatment I wanted to go for myself. I was scared, but relieved at the same time, because I knew I was going to get help I really needed. There were people in my treatment group who were there because they were either court ordered, or because their families basically forced them. I could tell they were resistant to the process from the start. BUT - over the course of time, I saw them change (most of them, anyway). They began to see that if they were even a bit willing, they could have a new life and a happier one, at that. Their defenses fell. They started to trust the process. They opened up. They started to work hard on their program, FOR THEMSELVES. So, I'd say go, but try to have some willingness from the start. Try to put aside the feeling that you are only there for someone else, and put aside the obvious feeling you have that you are being forced to go. Have an open mind. Do what they tell you to do. You may just find that you end up doing it for yourself.
NewHope - When I went to (outpatient) treatment I wanted to go for myself. I was scared, but relieved at the same time, because I knew I was going to get help I really needed. There were people in my treatment group who were there because they were either court ordered, or because their families basically forced them. I could tell they were resistant to the process from the start. BUT - over the course of time, I saw them change (most of them, anyway). They began to see that if they were even a bit willing, they could have a new life and a happier one, at that. Their defenses fell. They started to trust the process. They opened up. They started to work hard on their program, FOR THEMSELVES. So, I'd say go, but try to have some willingness from the start. Try to put aside the feeling that you are only there for someone else, and put aside the obvious feeling you have that you are being forced to go. Have an open mind. Do what they tell you to do. You may just find that you end up doing it for yourself.
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Originally Posted by newhope01 
It's kind of like in the back of my mind I can hear that nasty AV whispering, "don't worry you can drink when you get out."
when I get out of rehab I will be sober and working a strong Program.
M-Bob
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Originally Posted by Mountainmanbob
Rethink those kind of thoughts to
when I get out of rehab I will be sober and working a strong Program.
M-Bob
when I get out of rehab I will be sober and working a strong Program.
M-Bob
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Originally Posted by Mountainmanbob
Rethink those kind of thoughts to
when I get out of rehab I will be sober and working a strong Program.
M-Bob
when I get out of rehab I will be sober and working a strong Program.
M-Bob
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Join Date: Dec 2015
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I spent 2 months in inpatient rehab. I needed it. I could not get sober on my own. That being said, rehab did not "fix" me. It gave me a jump start on my sobriety. When I came out I needed to do meetings, find a sponsor, begin the steps etc. Ultimately it is your decision. There is a prevailing mentality that you cannot get sober without rehab. That is not true. People do it every day.
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Getting ready to go and crying immensely. I don't want to go and the fear is making me panic. I don't know what to expect or how long I will be there for it or even it makes a difference.
Last minute chance for suggestions for what to bring for distractions.
Last minute chance for suggestions for what to bring for distractions.
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You'll be ok. Fear is normal and expected because of the unknown. Just embrace each day and keep an open mind.
I went to inpatient directly from the hospital so all I had was a trash bag filled with some donated clothes and $20 in my pocket. It was all I needed. The rehab I went only allowed for clothes and toiletries, so no cell phones, radios, computers, etc.
I was scared beyond belief. I remember thinking on the way there, "how did my life get to this point?" and "I'm not one of THOSE people." Mind you, I was also strapped to a board in the back of an ambulance, so that didn't help.
But the rehab staff took care of me through detox and showed me the importance of a strong program. Rehab is a gift - it saved my life. And AA gave me my life back. Many people would kill for an opportunity to detox have 30 days to work solely on sobriety. I'm glad I didn't take it for granted.
That was almost 4 years ago. Still sober, no relapses.
Good luck
I went to inpatient directly from the hospital so all I had was a trash bag filled with some donated clothes and $20 in my pocket. It was all I needed. The rehab I went only allowed for clothes and toiletries, so no cell phones, radios, computers, etc.
I was scared beyond belief. I remember thinking on the way there, "how did my life get to this point?" and "I'm not one of THOSE people." Mind you, I was also strapped to a board in the back of an ambulance, so that didn't help.
But the rehab staff took care of me through detox and showed me the importance of a strong program. Rehab is a gift - it saved my life. And AA gave me my life back. Many people would kill for an opportunity to detox have 30 days to work solely on sobriety. I'm glad I didn't take it for granted.
That was almost 4 years ago. Still sober, no relapses.
Good luck
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I wished I had been as strong as you are
at this very moment 26 yrs ago. Sadly I
wasn't and it was at that very moment
when the authorities came in my home
to drive me away to the hospital.
I wasn't strong like you are now. I
needed help from others to do for
me what I couldn't nor wouldn't have
done by myself.
My family helped me and placed me
into the hands of others who were and
are capable of teaching me about my
disease and addiction to alcohol and
give me a program of recovery to
use as a guideline in my everyday
life for each day I remained sober.
You are strong and willing at this
very moment, going for help to
learn how to live a sober happy
healthy life once you are released.
Go with willingness, courage and
responsibility to take control of
your new sober life that is ahead of you.
This is a gift, a huge, rewarding gift
you can give to yourself.
Don't waste it or throw it away.
at this very moment 26 yrs ago. Sadly I
wasn't and it was at that very moment
when the authorities came in my home
to drive me away to the hospital.
I wasn't strong like you are now. I
needed help from others to do for
me what I couldn't nor wouldn't have
done by myself.
My family helped me and placed me
into the hands of others who were and
are capable of teaching me about my
disease and addiction to alcohol and
give me a program of recovery to
use as a guideline in my everyday
life for each day I remained sober.
You are strong and willing at this
very moment, going for help to
learn how to live a sober happy
healthy life once you are released.
Go with willingness, courage and
responsibility to take control of
your new sober life that is ahead of you.
This is a gift, a huge, rewarding gift
you can give to yourself.
Don't waste it or throw it away.
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Originally Posted by newhope01
Last minute chance for suggestions for what to bring for distractions.
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Join Date: Dec 2015
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Books.
A journal.
Quarters for snack machine/pay phone/laundry.
Flip flops for the shower.
Something that makes you smile.
Ciggs if you are a smoker. Seriously....bring a few cartons. Make sure you hide them though. LOL
Good luck. You can do this. We are all behind you.
A journal.
Quarters for snack machine/pay phone/laundry.
Flip flops for the shower.
Something that makes you smile.
Ciggs if you are a smoker. Seriously....bring a few cartons. Make sure you hide them though. LOL
Good luck. You can do this. We are all behind you.
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Join Date: Aug 2016
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Inpatient rehab was the best thing I could have done for my survival. 3 weeks of everything focused on my recovery.
Driving up to the entrance I was absolutely s******* myself. That fear quickly disappeared within about 10 minutes
You can do this. The help you will receive in a short amount of time will probably be the kick start you need.
I'm 86 days sober and at the start of November last year I could not go 2 days without a drink.
Good luck and try to think of this time as YOUR time. xx
Driving up to the entrance I was absolutely s******* myself. That fear quickly disappeared within about 10 minutes
You can do this. The help you will receive in a short amount of time will probably be the kick start you need.
I'm 86 days sober and at the start of November last year I could not go 2 days without a drink.
Good luck and try to think of this time as YOUR time. xx
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Join Date: Sep 2015
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Have a safe trip and make the most your rehab. The ideal is you do it for yourself, but sometimes it takes a push from others in your life to get you to finally do it.
Might I recommend colored pencils and good coloring design book? It's therapeutic and gives you a creative outlet, plus helps you deal with anxiety and brain changes. It's calming in a way, but engages your brain in a different way ...
Might I recommend colored pencils and good coloring design book? It's therapeutic and gives you a creative outlet, plus helps you deal with anxiety and brain changes. It's calming in a way, but engages your brain in a different way ...
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Hi newhope, I went to inpatient rehab for 7 weeks. I also went for someone else -- my H had filed for divorce and took temporary custody of our son, citing my drinking. I could have, like you, done outpatient. But all of the outpatient places near me were 12 Step based and I disagree with many of the basic tenets of AA. So I made a list of what's important to me in an inpatient rehab and found one that resonated with me.
I was terrified. Completely, utterly terrified. It was out of state but a 4-5 hour drive and I cried the whole way. I left behind 4 kids and a dog. My 3 older kids were seniors in high school and my youngest was 9. They all survived, and it was the best thing I ever did for myself -- and for them. My H and I divorced anyway but we share 50/50 custody of our son and I am in a much better place, both emotionally and physically.
I know how scary it is so please feel free to PM me with any questions.
I was terrified. Completely, utterly terrified. It was out of state but a 4-5 hour drive and I cried the whole way. I left behind 4 kids and a dog. My 3 older kids were seniors in high school and my youngest was 9. They all survived, and it was the best thing I ever did for myself -- and for them. My H and I divorced anyway but we share 50/50 custody of our son and I am in a much better place, both emotionally and physically.
I know how scary it is so please feel free to PM me with any questions.
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Im home and although I have no cravings I am feeling horribly depressed.
I dont want to be "home" and I dont want to be back at rehab.. I guess I don't have a sense of belonging and feel like I am just waiting to die.
I am off to my AA meeting.
Take care gals and gents.
I dont want to be "home" and I dont want to be back at rehab.. I guess I don't have a sense of belonging and feel like I am just waiting to die.
I am off to my AA meeting.
Take care gals and gents.
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