Foolsgold186

I often look back and wonder why I didn't stop drinking sooner, I had attempted it so many times and failed....I dragged myself to meetings, could see how others lives had been changed and yet I just couldn't believe it for myself, I literally hated myself, hated sober people, social drinkers, heavy drinkers, animals and vegetables you get the jist - I hated everyone.....but I kept going back because for however much I didn't want to stop drinking, I did. For how much I hated myself, I knew I was loved by my family.

In AA I was given a listening ear, a kind word, a cup of tea...hope. And day by day the weight I felt so heavily for so long began to feel lighter, peace walked beside me and life without alcohol seemed possible.

Today I feel so grateful to the people who I have met on my journey, the help I've been shown by complete strangers who are now friends. I thought my life was over not drinking, it had just began. I'm a mum to my beautiful son, I play with him, put him to bed, he calls for me, looks into my eyes and I know I've been there for him. Id never had even had him if I hadn't got sober.

I just never thought I was worth it, but today I know I am.

I just had to share this, life gets better - take it from a (former) pessimist

Anna

Yes, it does get better!

aasharon90

The miracle of recovery and sobriety
doesn't happen over night. Right?

I often heard, don't leave before the
miracle happens which soon became
the hope that kept me returning back
day after day.

Good post...!!!!

Upstairs

Good for you! I feel the same way. Why didn't I do this sooner. Better later than never, I guess.

columbus

Beautiful post, FG

hpdw

I'm happy for you that you have this nice feeling of gratitude . Being grateful for sobriety and the sober friends in your life is so important . I dont think there are many people here who wished they'd got sober a year ago , 2 years ,10 or 40 years ago . Your sober now thats all thats counts , well done .

fgo

Thank you for that post.

Doug39

I felt the same way.

I wanted to stop drinking for years but I didn't know how I would function without alcohol. Alcohol was such a major part of my life I feared being without it.

I try not to regret all the time I wasted being wasted - it is in the past and I can't change it.

I am 92 days sober and I have my ups and downs but I feel better than when I was drinking.

entropy1964

That's great! And so true. I fight recovery tooth and nail. I'm not fighting right now but I'm only 5 months....I expect to have to continually push myself.

My HP was there all along....and I fought that simple, simple concept for years. I don't believe, there's no 'proof', I'm too intelligent for that, I don't need that, I'm not like that....then, if there's a god I'm not worth it, God has better things to do, it won't work for me, hey its not 'working' (as in why can't I drink normally now), its too much work etc etc. Wow. I made things so much harder than they had to be.

january161992

those damn animals and vegetables

they are the problem!

funny

laughing with you not at you

Dee74

Bravo Foolsgold186

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Chifan7

Wonderful post! Thanks for sharing it.

Foolsgold186

I just felt when I first stopped drinking I would never get anywhere, eventually the days stack up but what you learn about yourself is the true beauty of recovery - life isn't over, all is not lost - that if your open to change the world as you know it will never be the same. How bloody amazing is that!?

FG x